Hi guys, thanks for all the lovely messages, it's been so nice to have friends in the same boat to share all this with. Still finding it hard to catch up on posts, I scanned through quickly and I'm glad you're all ok. Sorry to hear about delayed inductions and those of you who are overdue, achy and fed up. trinaj and bagpuss, it WILL happen, and soon! I have my fingers crossed for you. Treacletart, I have the midwives coming round for the next 4 or 5 days giving me the clexane in my tummy, it's been fine to be honest. Glad to hear mimi's doing well!
Yep, I'm well and truly smitten, and dp -Mr "babies are ugly"- is absolutely besotted! lol He keeps telling James how gorgeous he is. And he is. I had a bit of a tearfest last night when he opened his eyes during a late night feed and stared up at me, and I realised he has my mothers eyes. I lost her two years ago to cancer so it feels like I have something of her back, which just blew me away. Getting all blubby again now, aargh!
By the way, wanted to say that if it's any consolation to those of you who are first timers like I am and are dreading the aftermath, even WITH stitches, a sore ladygarden, chewed nips and shitty grinding afterpains when you bf, I wouldn't swap being heavily pregnant again for the world! you really will feel miles better afterwards, if only because you can go for hours without peeing again! Bliss.
Not looking forward to the rock hard boob stage though. The midwife told me that I'm already producing lots of milk and that's why James throws up so much (my laundry basket overfloweth) I assumed I wasn't producing anything yet really so I'm amazed. I spose I didn't have much faith that everything would work. lol
So he's feeding great when I can latch him on properly, but he's caused a few blood blisters with his vortex mouth. Ouch! Was funny actually when I asked for help with getting him latched on in hospital, the midwife announced loudly to the ward that "it's cos you have such big nipples" Thaaaaanks. She may as well have yelled "it's cos you're smothering him with your chapel hat pegs" lol Ah well, leave your dignity at the door and all that...
Oh, and to end on a moan (as ever lol) dp asked me how long mil could stay, I said 2 or 3 days. I later saw on his phone he'd told her 4 or 5 days...and as she said goodbye to sil today she said "see you next weekend" so I'm a bit p'd off with that as there are people I'd like to be visiting and things, and it'd be nice to be able to breastfeed downstairs where the tv is etc instead of upstairs alone.
Of course she has an opinion on everything (as mothers do!) so today's was "tummy tub? no don't use that, it's not a good idea" and then "told you so" when he screamed BEFORE he was put in the water. Also apparently I'm doing everything in the wrong order. A roar of "let me make my own mistakes!" is perpetually lurking at the back of my throat.
She's got me a load of little freezer pots "for when you start pureeing his food and weaning him when he gets to about 3 months, cos your milk won't be enough by then" LOL... I bit my tongue. a) My milk WILL be enough, it's what it's designed for, b)I'm not weaning him til 6 months, and c) I'm not pureeing/spoonfeeding anything, I'm doing BLW ! That conversation will be fun.
Oh, and last night, sil gave my 1 day old baby some chocolate on the end of her dirty fucking finger. I was so angry I could have punched her in the face. I still can't think about it or I just start to get really furious. Trying not to be too precious about baby, but honestly, what are some people thinking?
God, sorry for wittering on, I'm even worse than usual! I'm going to try and post a pic or two of James in a bit, to be honest they aren't the best but I'll post more as we take them.