Hey, just popping my head back in to say I spoke to the midwife yesterday who has put me at ease. She was so lovely and compassionate. She (along with everyone else I speak to) said these early scans are highly unreliable for dating and I won't really know until 12 weeks. My lack of symptoms shouldn't be a worry either. She said to call back at any time whenever i'm having a wobble.
I literally have no symptoms left. I cannot remember the last time my boobs hurt, maybe 3/4 days ago. All I have left to reassure me is a dry mouth. I'm not even weeing as much as before.
I am desperatly hoping that I am actually where I think I am (8+4) and that the placenta is starting to take over hence the symptoms going. People keep telling me to stay positive so that is what I am telling myself.
I have spoken to Popsy and told him/her (him I reckon!) that we are in this together and we are going to get through this as Team Popsy.
I went to the GP yesterday who called the EPU while I was there and I now have an appointment for next Weds to be scanned again. We will have a bigger baby by then with much better developments and we will still see a heartbeat - a good strong one 
Now I've just got to keep trying to convince myself between now and then!
I hope everyone is well. And I am so deeply sorry for the losses we've had in this group. My heart aches so much, I've been that person who has had to leave and it is the most awful feeling and I wish so much I could change that and that we could have all got through this unscathed.
Life is so fucked up and so so hard for so many people. My only hope is that the ones who have experienced losses are able to try again because I never want to see anyone go through the torture of not TTC after loss.
Anyway, I am literally begging the cosmos for brilliant things for all of us from here on in.
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