@orangekitkat13 I know there are so many pitfalls of POAS with dilution issues etc. My first disappointment was when my clearblue didn't show 3+...but I'm not the only one with that issue! I don't want to be too reliant on these tests because there is only so much it can tell me. If I want clarity I will go to Dr next week for clarity. I'm actually hugely relieved that my bleeding today looked as it did because it's sufficiently similar to last time for me to feel quite confident in knowing what has happened without having to go back to the Dr to confirm.
DH is telling me I've "over reacted" and that there's no reason to believe it's not still inside (even when I showed him just now! Blueergh! Will he ever think of me the same again!). Well...not all men get it! I could have slapped him when I said that. Anyway. He will also have to get over it. Men! Another clear example of a twat-move by a man trying to be helpful ;)
I like your finger crossing ;) thanks guys. I'll drop back in a while anyway to say hi. That said it might be a bit odd if I hang around on the FB group so it would be nice to have a volunteer to help @Sarahandduckarehigh with it.
I'm obviously disappointed and frustrated but I'm hopeful it won't be too long again until I can feel the GLORY of all those abysmal first trimester symptoms. Only two days ago I said to DH I couldn't put myself through it again if I lost it...but the body is in "self protect" mode and has already forgotten how awful those symptoms made me feel. Odd.
But don't worry about me. I'm okay. Continue on and be awesome. Can't believe I'm leaving the club because you guys are awesome and you definitely got me through that awful week in France. Bless her, I'm still thinking about poor Red because I think she took it a lot more to heart than I have. I hope she does pop back to read this and know she isn't alone.
Essay over! Good luck guys