i didn't have to search really, i have them all saved so just found the one titled 'keep this to yourselves' (inspired by your comment) and worked back. sad i know.
and no, i will not change back, cos i'm not here really.
i'm still crying, stopped long enough to go to sainsbo's but started the minute i walked back in. it's cos the bloody boy is at his dad's.
i what makes me angry is that they seem to have forgotten not all of us are desperate for this baby. sorry if it sounds harsh but i'm still not looking forward to it. i'll love it, of course i will, but it doesn't mean i'm excited about having it.