Sorry you're feeling so rough Leonie, it's hard work. We're combination feeding atm as Tamsin wasn't getting enough from me. C section delayed my full milk production I think, so although it came in at the normal time it wasn't enough for her. We're now alternating between boob and bottle and she's doing really well. Dh and I are also sleeping separately at the moment. I'm going to bed around 8pm after a boob feed, he's doing the 11pm with formula (though i wake up for that anyway just because any noise from her has me immediately awake) and then I get up with her at 2am or so for the next boob feed. I then just sleep downstairs with her so she doesn't wake up dh.
It's working for us at the moment, but it's hard. He went back to work on Monday after only a week off (some of which I was in hospital) so it felt very early to be on my own. How are you doing mobility wise now? I'm finding that I feel fine (not needed painkillers for a few days) but that it's easy to overdo it. We went for a walk around the park yesterday evening and I could only manage one lap - 20mins walk maybe. Was struggling after that and in a fair amount of discomfort.
I was so looking forward to being more mobile after not being in later pregnancy and the c section has definitely taken that away! It's quite frustrating knowing I can't nip out for bread or milk even because I can't drive and the shop is just too far away for a there and back trip to be manageable walking.
I've also had the added fun of breaking out into full on all over body hives on Sunday. I think it was a stress reaction to her feeding issues, the fact that they had to keep redoing her heel prick test as she wasn't bleeding enough, and just tiredness. I'm now on antihistamines, which is fine but I'm concerned that they're interfering with my milk production, as that doesn't seem to be increasing at the moment, and I'm concerned is going down. However, there's nothing I can do about it as without them I'm so itchy I'm in danger of making myself bleed. Feeling a bit better each day so hopefully I'm right and it was stress, which is now easing.
With you on the c section pouch as well. Weight wise I'm 0.7kg less than my booking in weight. However, different shape! Much more wobbly belly going on, and the pouch is definitely an interesting new feature. Just ignoring it atm in all honesty, I'm only 10 days post surgery right now so who knows how it'll change over the next couple of months.
Hope you have a good day with Theo today. You will be fine when your oh goes back to work. It honestly goes quicker than you think. If you consider the 3 hourly feeds, (that I guess take about an hour?) then you only have a few segments of time before he gets back from work. No point looking at it as the whole day, that's far too long to really comprehend this early on, but 4 segments of time in between feed for example isn't quite so daunting.
Do you have friends/family around who can visit so you're not on your own if you don't want to be? I've struggled with that this week as, like you, nobody was expecting her this early! I think next week people are starting to book in for visits though so hopefully that will break it up a bit.
I've no doubt you're doing a great job, try not to lose sight of that - we're all in at the deep end and figuring out how to stay afloat at first xx