Oh god I just need to SEETHE here if that's ok, I am so fucking fucked off.
Today was the first full day my DS had at preschool. He has been going for mornings only for about 10 months and now he has his funded hours we decided to top up the 15 hours with an extra 3 self funded so he was going two mornings and two full days and I would be able to spend that time with the new baby and go to activities etc, like I did with DS when he was a baby.
So, we pick up DS, the invoice is in the drawer, my DP takes one look at the amount and has a fit. There was nothing unexpected there, it was all agreed and the hours worked out and now he has made me feel like total shit and I've had to email the treasurer to ask if we can drop his hours down as I just can't deal with this shit every half term.
We had had a really lovely day just us both, had lunch, walked by the river hand in hand and then he has to do his normal and fucking freak out about money at the end. I will now cover the invoice myself and hopefully I can just drop the hours back down and he can do mornings only. I won't be able to go anywhere with the baby but I figured I wouldn't feel like I could do anything with the baby anyway as those swimming and massage classes are actually quite costly.
What a shit way to start the New Year. He has a terrible cold and I'm so angry I can't talk to him as once again he has moved the goal posts after agreeing to something and I feel totally vulnerable as I'm a SAHM and can't suddenly rush out to find s job with s couple of weeks before I pop 😡😡