I was on this lovely group at the beginning, but life took over and by my second trimester I was either working, doing housework or dealing with multiple issues so couldn't find the time to get on here but I've missed all you lovely ladies.
First, just caught up on this thread and Northdownmummy - thanks so much for your well wishes, really hope you get a bfp soon. You are lovely to come back with your positivity for us and your in my thoughts.
Life - sorry you've got so much going on. It must be exhausting, bless you.
Congrats to Gudgy (gorgeous photos! Sorry c section didn't go to plan and hope you're ok), ZylaB (what a beautiful little girl! So glad she's healthy.),
Wheredidipark (congrats! So glad she got to meet your grandad!) and hope things may be progressing for you, Lotsoftoast!
Durham - hope you're feeling better now and have managed to come home from hospital. You've been fab throughout such a hard pregnancy - just wanted to say have total admiration.
And Good luck, moo!
Update for those who remember me... (Didn't find out if boy/girl, edd 21st march)
After pretty good support from CMHT and the mental health midwifery team things have suddenly taken a strange and rather melodramatic turn. I've been on medication for the duration of my pregnancy, one is very safe and the other has less research but that done so far seems to be fine. Specialists have been aware of this from before I became pregnant, it has been discussed fully throughout my pregnancy and I have had extra growth scans (baby is on larger side of normal - more likely to match 8lb12 hubby than me, I was 4lb15!) yet on my last midwife appointment they suddenly turned round and said they wanted to keep my little one in for 72 hours minimum in neonatal on monitors as a precautionary measure. It was 2 weeks and 4 days before my EDD, we had previously planned to come home as soon as possible if everything went well. I was so upset at best case scenario being neonatal - that was without any symptoms at all of poor adaption syndrome. None of the specialists that work in the neonatal mental health field agree, it was all done on the basis of some pharmacist.
I made my views very clear on it. I have had to change my desires with this pregnancy all the way through because of their - often misjudged - recommendations and can't help feeling robbed of the experience I wanted. For example, I switched from home birth to hospital for them but wish I'd just put my foot down. I'm meeting with them on Monday to 'discuss' though what we're discussing I don't know as they know my feelings. I don't think they understand just how much knowledge I have surrounding the mental health field and medications and how much I do understand what is going on - especially having had a really good specialist involved from ttc.
I know it sounds bad but if little one was ill of course I'd be ok with them being in neonatal, but to have a healthy baby put in there... I'd be distraught but how could I show that in front of parents whose tiny babies were really struggling? Please hope they think clearly on this and take the specialist advice of letting me, dh and little one return home asap after birth with no drastic unnecessary precautions.
On top of that, we've had flat problem after flat problem which the landlord has let drag on and on never being properly fixed, workman have been round 3 times a week plus at least once at weekends for the last three months and before that about twice a week. most recent problem culminated on Monday when we found a whole new electricity meter needs to be installed (we share it with neighbour downstairs in very odd set up) so currently at my parents' on the south coast. Luckily we were already staying with them for a long weekend so after the landlord had tried to blame our electric heater for causing the problem multiple times, we could prove it was nothing to do with us! DH has a sleep disorder (periodic limb movement disorder) which doctors are not wanting to help with, what with that and SPD plus flat problems I can safely say I may actually get more sleep with a newborn around. Family have had also had a huge crisis recently which I can't explain but has been difficult (not illness, don't worry) and we won't know much more about it until April earliest but it's likely to drag on for over a year. DH has struggled to grow up and be a supportive partner, though he is definitely improving it Hs been very stressful - it has been a case of me doing it all without help really up until recently. But on the plus side, despite ongoing mental illness I haven't had a psychotic break throughout the whole pregnancy which is amazing and brilliant as I've not ever been stable on so little medication.
Anyway, so sorry for the essay. If anyone reads it then thank you so much and you deserve a big glass of wine cup of tea! 
have missed all of you a lot and hope to join in properly now - Facebook never worked for me, I must have screwed up my email or something!
Birth plan wise - am trying to do hypnobirthing (been practising for ages and loving it) and hoping for a water birth. Using essential oils too to hopefully help me along. Mum used to be a midwife and is main birthing partner, dh will be present but less emotional pressure on him then, but both have also been getting clued up on hypnobirthing. Anyone else trying this approach?