Wuzz, I am very fed up the is this it? no it isn't... thing that is going on, but I said to DH last night, I think we have to calm down and not get stressed by it, when they started regular again last night, DH said that's it I'm not going to work tomorrow, but I said he can't not work between now and any time up till the middle of December, and with his job he can't stay within an hours drive away either, I have told him he has to go, and we have to treat every time the contractions start as being this itrritble uterus thing else we are going to be going hopping mad by the time the due date arrives.
We did sort of discuss the home birth thing, and I realise now why he hasn't been so keen, aside from feeling hurt and let down by MIL, he is actually feeling guilty for me because she had taken the worry of DS away, and then just dumped it all back on our/my plates, and he says he couldn't bear the thought of seeing me in labour pain, at home with no drugs, and knowing that if she wasn't such a selfish cow then we could have been in hospital having the epidurals and everything else, so basically he is feeling shit for having a shit mother.
I honestly don't know how I am going to be able to face her without saying anything, I have to face her and be friendly enough for DS's sake, but if she even dares to ask for another single thing from me/us, there is going to be trouble! I hate her for she is doing to DH, on top of what he is feeling about her, and the situation she has led us to, he is feeling guilty for going to work, guilty for being hours and hours away at any one time, he is feeling really bad about himself when he goes up to bed every night knowing I am going to be awake and in pain most of the night, and there is nothing I can do to help not feel all these things.
(Wow sorry, thought I should christen the thread with one of famous marathon posts!! Ok I didn't, I just got carried away as usual!!)