April 2015 thread 2 for miscarriage survivors. today we are pregnant!

[TinyTear]

Thread 2
Nearly at the 12w mark for all and we can start some stats!

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Oneday - I think it is quite normal. Not sure if it is related to the mmc or just pregnancy hormones and being a mum but I went from being completely care free to worrying about lots of things. (Was about to start listing them but don't want to put ideas into other people's heads.) I think worrying about a sick dog is a similar stress to worrying about a sick child. I didn't quite realise how tough it is being pg with another child to look after because last time I could focus on just me and adjust my life depending on how I was feeling. (Luckily, I haven't mc'd with a child but I imagine that is very tough too as yet again you can't fall apart when someone else is relying on you.) But you do get through it when you have to. That said, I have said several times this weekend -why do we want a 2nd child? My life pre-ttc was so much easier !!

Time for bed -got to go to work tomorrow and not sure how much sleep I will get tonight.

Tiny -is poor dd ill again? I hope she feels better in the morning. dh luckily has Monday and Tuesday off work so I can go to work which is good. (Although I could really do with a long sleep.)

Ive just wrote out a long reply and my phone crashed I havent got the energy to do it again so I hope everyone has a good week, that those with scans get good results and reassurance and that all poorly little ones feel better x

I think this might have been either a quick tummy bug or something she ate yesterday... She did eat a snack in the playground and I think DH didn't clean her hands properly after the sandpit...

Better night but then she had a nightmare at 4 and was awake till 6
Yawn

Hope everything goes ok today little

Sympathy tiny - hope she's feeling better soon.

I had a bit of a crap night too - got back from a weekend oop north just after midnight but DD2 wouldn't go back to sleep until gone 2, and then I'm up for work at 6.30

She seemed fine this morning, including me giving her a kiss goodbye (daddy takes her to nursery) and she saying "don';t want a kiss, I will rub it off"

So I had to lie down on the floor next to DD's bed for a while to help her back to sleep... newbie was fluttering about... when I get back to bed tell DH and he says "she was probably trying to punch her sister"

I hope today goes well little.

Another one with very little sleep this weekend. I think dd is feeling a bit better as she was saying 'mummy' repeatedly in different voices for several hours last night and then when I would go in, I would get 'go away mummy'. The night before she was too unwell to do that.

Lol LIG
I'd turn the monitor off with that!!! Or make a point of sending daddy...

Little good luck and don't let yourself be fobbed off x

Good luck today little

Im not sleeping properly, I either cant get comfortable or need a wee then cant get back to sleep or I have heartburn, im really struggling at work because I dont have the energy to do anything, I dont know how those of you with toddlers are coping especially poorly ones, im grateful my charges are both at school full time so at least I can rest inbetween doing things.

is it wrong to be counting down to mat leave already?

Oh and I finally caved and ordered a maternity coat, none of mine fit anymore.

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I'm feeling a bit better today so I've decided just to wait till the 2pm appointment.

So glad you DD is feeling better Tiny.

Smiling I imagine most people are counting down to maternity leave, when are you planning to start yours?

Glad your feeling a bit better little will be thinking of you x

have said id like mat leave to start on the 2nd of March and will return on the 3rd of August.

I suddenly feel heavy and tired and dont want to be at work, its not helping that I had to work everyday last week (60hrs) and 4 days this week (48hrs) I know lots of people do those hours all the time but ive worked 3 days for years and am not used to it. On top of the hours my bosses keep asking me to do extra things, I already help in school 2 afternoons a week but theyve asked me to help with the school book fair, have a friends 2 children after school for a week because their au pair is off (twin 4yr olds) and a list of jobs everyday, it never used to be like this it feels like they are trying to get their moneys worth before I go on mat leave.

Sorry ill stop moaning now

I love my job most days and im extremely glad to be pregnant despite the heartburn, sore breasts, aching back, painful hips, tiredness, constant worry etc etc im just feeling tired and grumpy today!

Tiny - I did turn the monitor down at one point but then lay there awake till I knew she was asleep and turned it up again. I worried her temperature would spike and she would throw up or have a convulsion. I did send dh in a few times but still didn't sleep!

Smiling - that sounds like a tough week. Will you get paid overtime for it? I made a spreadsheet last week calculating how many work days I have left till mat leave. (I am a geek!!) I have found that whilst I love my job as soon as I get pregnant I start to mentally prepare for maternity leave. I had a meeting with my boss and he said that I didn't seem ambitious and I had to explain that I had been pregnant most of the time he managed. That said I was stupidly excited about returning to work after dd -but it wore off pretty quickly.

Little - glad you are feeling better today. I hope today is a reassurance for you and will be keeping everything crossed.

Well we've had a troubling development. DC seems fine and my cervix is closed but the sac is starting to come away for the placenta.
Dr says he sees this in normal pregnancies too but with my history of two pProms and bulging membranes its a concern. But there is nothing they can do to help.
They offered to admit me but it seems a bit pointless if they can't do anything but monitor and I run the risk of infection.
So I'm at home on strict bedrest and I will be doubling my Vit C to strengthen the sac.

Little that sounds troubling. Strict bed rest sounds good, crossing fingers for the next few days...

Oh dear, seems scary.
Six more weeks, six more weeks...
Strict bed rest and we are all rooting for you

Oh little thats worrying I know its of little comfort but try to look at the positive in him seeing it in normal pregnancy

Thanks for the support it really helps.
Tiny so true only 5w+5d till V day. It's crazy of such a short space of time my life it a true juncture it will either go to motherhood or a completely new direction.

DH way of trying to take my mind of it was to go on and on about how much it must hurt to give birth. yes dear it smarts a little hence all the drugs!

I'm so exhausted.

smiling I think you need to talk to your bosses about the work load. It happens a lot in nannying, families don't mean to do it but the pile on the chores whatever they can't do you end end up doing and they don't realise how much time and effort it all takes.
IME it happens when you've been in a job a really long time and the nanny is super competent.

The extra kids I wouldn't be happy about, can someone else have them?

I refused the extra kids, they are little horrors and even when im on top form I find them exhausting, bosses looked shocked that id said no.

That sounds like the sort of worry you could well do without little but positive that it's seen in normal pregnancies as well.
Stick rigidly to bed rest - we are all rooting for you xx