I seem to swing between seeing a nice midwife and a horrible one on alternate visits. Today was the horrible one and she made me cry again :( lol at the beginning she wrote "mood stable, looks very well" and at the end wrote "tearful". Also wrote loads of shit about "may need FSE". Surely everyone "may need" FSE? How can you possibly know that I'll need it until the day comes?
She started off with "of course you won't be allowed on the nice new birthing unit". I don't actually give a shit about that, I've come to terms with the fact that I'll be on the sodding labour ward. What upset me was when she told I'll have to have five days of blood-thinning injections, and totally shut me down when I told her about my history. I've got very thin blood already due to years and years on a particular AD which has a blood-thinning side effect, and I've haemorrhaged (from my uterus) in the past (seriously, I nearly bled to death). I asked, would thinning my blood even more not put me at further risk of haemorrhage? No, because of my BMI, I must have thick blood. Omg. Listen to what I've just told you. Look at me as an individual! Think outside the tick boxes! Argh.
Oh and she said the mucus is normal, but since I don't trust a word she says, I'm taking it mega easy today just in case! I almost threw up walking home from the doctors because I was so desperate for the toilet 
doesn't bode well for tomorrow.
Oh, she also doesn't think the baby will be as big as the scans show. I had to show her the charts and she decided it wouldn't follow the trajectory 
back this up with science, please!