God my posts are shocking when I'm on my phone, sorry!
I do understand about the society thing. I'm at college every few weekends at a field centre and there is a bar. Weekend before last when I was there it was boiling, and one day was particularly hot and long so I sat and nursed a pint of shandy all evening. Sitting outside with my friends drinking something tasty made me feel nearly normal. I chose the weakest beer and filled my glass to half a pint then gave the other half of the bottle away to one of the lads so I wasn't tempted to drink any more. I still had judgy glances and a few "should you be drinking that?" Fuck-em though. Twasnt like I was mainlining cocaine of hookers backs whilst chugging back pints of vodka!
Today I made it across town and back without incident. Came home and flea-treated the whole upstairs of the house as we seem to have an infestation and it's vile. :(