I have had the worst possible news this morning.
When the consultant did the scan to prep for the amnio, he could not find a heartbeat. My baby has died.
I am in total shock. It was all going so well, and everything looked good at the last scan a few weeks ago.
They couldn't see any obvious reasons why, but he said that it might well have been that there really was a chromosomal abnormality that caused it. I will now go back in to take the first round of meds tomorrow, then going to be induced on Thursday.
It is all beyond my comprehension right now, I feel utterly destroyed, standing in front of this massive pile of shattered hopes, dreams and plans that I had started to make.
I will now bow out and say goodbye to all you lovely ladies. You have been such a support in the last few months, I had so hoped that I would be with you for the rest of our pregnancies. I will be thinking of you all, come September and October!
Good luck to every single one of you - may you all have healthy, happy pregnancies and lots of healthy, happy babies! xxx