laura007 Having done it once I can honestly say that I don't fear the birth this time. Last time I was nervous about the prospect, scared even but this time: nope!
I can honestly that it was a lovely lovely experience. Yes it hurt like b*ggery (had just G&A) but the pain has a purpose, every contraction is closer to the end. I begged for pain relief but looking back, that was transition: the 'I want to go home' bit.
I felt elated afterwards. Like I'd done the most amazing thing in the world. That buzz lasted for ages.
I know things can and do go wrong, and I really had the fear the first time. But once in labour it felt almost surreal. I kept thinking 'is this real? I'm in labour?!' and I sort of went into myself, zoned out.
I know that unfortunately it isn't like that for everyone but there's every reason to hope that it could be a positive experience for you. There's nothing to fear. I had the thought that if it got scary I would close my eyes, not look at anyone else so that I couldn't see others' fear, if it was there.
I puked today. Ugh. 14 weeks, make it stop!