Hi all,
Popping on here as lost the post natal thread. So much gone on since I was last here so congrats for all the new arrivals and sympathy for those still pregnant.
Life has been totally mental please please enjoy your babies first timers as things take on a whole new set of challenges if u go on to have more.
I was discharged from hospital Sunday. Naomi is still in Special Care - she is fine but won't take a bottle so being tube fed. (Apparently very common for 34 wk babies but very fustrating as they obviously won't let her home until she feeds :( )
So I've been dropping my son at school, going to the hospital all day and trying to get her to feed. DS had a cold so not been allowed to come over to see his baby sister. I've gone up to the Fetal Health Unit Monday and Tuesday evening for my post natal checks to find that my bp still through the roof so had to wait to see drs and have bloods etc.
By the time we've left baby and got hone its gone 7 so its dinner and bed for DS then its all up in the morning, drop DH at the new house to decorate, drop DS at school and me back to the hospital for another battle with the bottle.
This went on for 3 days, when I went for my post natal check last night ghetto said my blood pressure was still to high and admitted me. Oops.
Cue major meltdown no 100. Been reset every day since the birth anyway as can't be a proper mum to either of my kids right now and I know baby is in the right place but tube feeding feels like force feeding how is she going to know if she's hungry and ask for food if its constantly being given and her tummy is always full?
The special care sister took me aside in my meltdown and explained that prem babies often have what they call a "long sleep" where they are simply too tired to wake up and feed. Once she comes out of this things should be different. She said its not force feeding, they are only giving her the amount she needs to be nourished and hydrated. Ok so I understand a bit more now but still just want her home.
They let me go home to tell DS and come back again and luckily my big brave boy was ok with it. Feel so guilty he's hardly seen me Edgar with one thing and another since she's been born. I just hope he doesn't resent her or hate me for it. He's only 5 so what does he understand about mummy being poorly and having to go back to hospital? He might think I'm coming back because I want to spend more time with the baby than him. Oh god.
Then there's hubby and the house decorating. The like man has been having "help" from both sets of in laws which basically means arguments over who does what room and how, one set completely taking over the kids rooms and saying they would only help if they picked everything. Until I came home on Sunday and said absolutely no way, they can paint the rooms and carpet, but they are MY kids and I will be picking everything else.
Cue lots if "you should be grateful, blah blah blah, telling hubby he needs to get on with ur, they would have dine the whole house by now" ugh. Vile people. They have seen the baby once since she's been born. Once. And barely ask how we are both doing. So ive been trying to support hubby as well, went to the house yesterday, (he's been doing a great job I'm so proud of him) and gave a bit of input.
So basically I can't wait til all this is over and me and baby girl are in our new home with my boys.
NEVER try and do everything at once ladies it won't work!!! And I have high blood pressure why??!!