hello girls. excuse the one handed typing, but theo is attached to my boob so have only one hand free. Excuse the long post in advance...
We got to the hospital at 7.30 in the morning and were told we probably had a few hours wait till lunchtime for the section. I had been so nervous, so I was suddenly very tired so I lay down on the bed and went to sleep. Two minutes later the midwife ran in again and said "change of plan you're on now!" and rushed me up to the theatre. I was really nervous walking in and there were about 15 people all scrubbed up and saying hello and I felt really weepy suddenly. They said they were worried about whether the spinal would work straight away, my back is not the skinniest so I was worried about whether they could tell where to put the needle. I sat still on the edge of the bed in the smallest ball I could get into for about 25 minutes while they prepped me and put the spinal in. It worked thank goodness and then they lay we on the table which was tipped by about 40 degrees to the left so there was not too much pressure on my arteries. My BP kept going crazily low so they squeezed (literally) 3 litres of saline and lots of drugs into me to combat that. The opening up took longer than expected as apparently I had a lot of scar tissue to go through from last time. DH said at one point he looked at the floor and there was a huge pool of blood spreading around that's when I smelt the burning which I later found out was them quarterising veins that were bleeding. After 25 minutes they lowered the screen so I could see them hold up a very white vernix-y squaking bundle of loveliness. They wrapped him in a towel and gave him to dh to hold while they closed me up. I was thrilled not to have a drain this time and my stiches are dissolvable so that brilliant too. They weighed and measured theo and then gave him back to dh while he (theo not dh) screamed for the rest of the operation. Then they put him on me for skin to skin while I was in recovery and he immediately stopped crying and opened his eyes to look at me for ages. I couldn't believe the instant bond and love that I felt for him straight away. I hadn't had this instantly with dd so it was a lovely surprise. He fed while I was in recovery and after an hour we went down to the ward.
The first 24 hours he was an angel. i woke him up every 3 hours ish for a feed and he slept the rest of the time. Then yesterday afternoon he started rooting away for a feed and hasnt stopped wanting it since. I am so tired today. I think that I'll mix breast and bottle feeding this time, so I can get a break till my milk comes in cos the poor lad is so tired from wanting to feed all night and not getting any milk and my nipples are agony so I expect with just a small bottle he might get a fwe hours kip in the night without it slowing down my milk coming in too much. I just have to take it a day at a time.
They let me out after 48 hours so I got back home just before lunch. It's so nice to be home, the ward was filthy and boiling hot and I like my house a whole lot more!
DD is being an angel, she's giving him kisses and cuddles. She was a bit unsure at the hospital but is more relaxed each day.
I've got some strong painkillers but am still in a whole lot of pain. generally the experience is so so much better than the horrible emergency one last time, I was up walking and having a shower the following morning. I have a neat scar but it does hurt and I asked dh to look at my back earlier and I have a huge bruise (about the size of a side plate!) on my back from the spinal which I dont remember from last time.
Sorry this must be a really long post by now but I dont know whether he'll be a quiet enough lad to let me type another for a while. Thanks for all your messages, dh printed them out and bought them to hospital yesterday for me to see bless him. I look forward to reading the next announcement now. What are the odds on who is next?