Threefortea sorry to hear your news. Take care of yourself and like others, I hope you find the space to grieve. When we had what we assume was a chemical in July, we listened to Paloma Faith a lot- there's some sad stuff on there and it was really cathartic, helped us cry (DH doesn't cry). Hope you feel better soon.
In my neck of the woods, I am ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY because I had my booking-in appt, and although the midwife is lovely and chatty, and she said I'm low-risk, because of my BMI, which she has at 40 on account of her scales weighing me as half a stone heavier than in RL, she says I have to be referred to a consultant, and I won't be able to give birth in the midwife led unit like I wanted... because I'm OBESE!
OK, I know I'm not skinny. I'm a well-upholstered hourglass (to the tune of 16 stone). Unfortunately I'm only 5'3", so naturally this means I'm going to explode or something. Not happy. But I really wish I hadn't looked at all the options and decided what I wanted before I found out I don't even HAVE any options. So no water birth, no relaxed environment, no aromatherapy. Grump.
Incidentally, on my wii fit, it thinks the ideal weight for my height would be 8 and a half stone. With my frame, if I weighed this I would be dead. If I was 12 stone, that would put me at the top end of the overweight category, rather than obese.
Now I'm sorely tempted to up my exercise and eat the most healthily I ever have in my life just to see if I can drop some weight (healthily of course, I don't do faddy diets) and stick 2 fingers up at them.
I can't help thinking that the thing that is going to cause problems with this pregnancy isn't me or my weight at all, it will be medical interference which causes me stress and worry, which I'll pass on to Peanut.
Why can't they just leave me alone!???!!?!
Hopefully I'll get to see this consultant and they won't be bothered at all, and send me away laughing (you never know). My stamina is fine, I'm perfectly healthy, I'm just a bit overweight. It's not even around my stomach, its on my boobs, legs and bum. My sister has a completely different body shape to me, with just an epic pair of boobs, and she still weighs about 11 stone. I know it's an old chestnut, but I honestly do think it's just our genes...
I'm trying to be sensible and understand that all that is important is that Peanut is ok and in the best place, but I'm just really frustrated.