eaurouge can I add guilt fuelled trips to Tesco toy aisles 
Although I'm very lucky my two have cheap tastes so at the minute buying in bulk at Poundland and bringing out treats when it all gets a little too screechy!!! CBeebies is the greatest invention ever, everytime I grr at paying the license fee I think of Justin, Chris and Sid and I would gladly pay double!!
Ledkr Hopefully your dh will be able to get "family friendly" shifts, I sometimes think you can forget what a worrying and difficult time you and D had when she was born, the in and out of hospital, difficulty feeding (both you and her 
), the inlaws, the bleeding etc, you need to be easier on yourself, Ella will be fine, maybe some of your friends can help out, give you a break - not to clean, do housework etc but to rest, read a trashy magazine etc, nosy at sleb gossip sites!!
Deliaskis Thinking of you, hope you get the support you need, keep posting if you can, even a quick line, might help to get some of your thoughts on paper so to speak.