For Bereaved Mummies. Remembering Jack and our other precious little ones... the sharing of hurt is the beginnning of healing.

[lottiejenkins]

Third time lucky........ Thanks to Shabs and FMN. I hope i can carry the baton as well as you did. I havent made a good start though. Things can only get better.........

Just linked our thread to another bereaved mummy - Orangemoon. I hope she comes and chats for a while. I know you will all welcome her - I hate the fact that our little group is growing BUT I know we can all help each other xxxxxx

I havent heard from her.........im getting worried now!

Me too. Has anybody got her email address?

I havent sorry..........

So sorry to have worried anyone! Didn't mean to.

Scan was a bit of a palava really. Saw everything looking good but couldn't get a good view of the heart so told to go off for 20 mins. Went off, came back and waited patiently for an hour. Eventually dp asked how much longer only to discover the sonographer had literlly forgotten us! So back in, another look but baby STILL not in a good position so I'm booked in again for Tuesday. She said everything she;s seen looks fine, so I'm not worried too much. She also said as far as she can tell it is a girl. I cried, there and then. But I know now so can come to terms with it. Have told my parents and dd1 and ds, but will take my time about others for the time being.

Anyway, am in the throes of cooking a choccie bday cake for my friend so must dash!

(But thank you all so much for thinking about me.....)

Thanks for letting us know FMN you had us worried there. Awwww a pink one....Im not suprised you cried...I would have been sobbing xxx

Am glad all is well FMN................ thinking of you and praying for you xxxxxxxxxxxxx

AWW fmn I remember when they told me that Ross was another little boy..

you will be all over the place for a few days

hope they get better a view next week

Good morning girls xx

morning girlsxx

Morning all.

FMN - glad to hear all is well. I wasn't surprised when we found out we were having another boy, as that is what I suspected we were having. However, whether you found out you were having a boy or a girl, it would still be a really emotional time.

Remember this baby is a younger sister to all of your siblings. This has become very apparant to me since having Mac. I feel very strongly that Mac is Cole's younger brother, not a substitute/replacement.

Let's hope your little squirmer keeps still for next week! I remember having to be scanned on my hands and knees with Cole so the sonographer could get a better picture!

Here's to a good weekend for all of us.

Morning xxxxxxxxxxx

Hi ladies, thank you for the thoughts and prayers.

I'm getting used to the idea now. Like you said, Ilike, it would have been emotional regardless of the colour. I felt to ill sitting in the waiting room. I was looking at all the other couples there who all looked so chilled out, probably just thinking about getting to see their baby again and finding out if it was a boy or a girl, and there was me screaming in my head again "you just don't know! How can you be so complacent when so many things could go wrong!". Of course, I'm probably just envious really that they don't know the things I know, that they have the luxury of just being excited and not petrified!

So now we need to start name thinking! Had a boys name from withn days of finding out I was pg, and haven't thought about girls at all. I remember I used to think how easy it was to find a girls name and how hard boys names were. Oh, how I wish I could remember the girls names I liked (apart from the 7-long one I chose aged 14!!!!!)

Anyway, I have a busy day today. It's is my friends 50th birthday meal tonight. I have made a cake but still need to ice it, which I plan to do this afternoon when my parents take the dc to the fair for an hour or two. I need to be in town for 5pm to collect the balloons, take them over to the restaurant (luckily just opposite!), decorate the table, give them the cake, go home and make myself decent, take ds to friends house for 6.45pm, pick other dinner gusets up at 7pm then be back at the restaurant for dinner at 7.30! THEN, take other dinner guests home and pick ds up from friends (he could have stayed the night but wanted to come home with me )

Awwww FMN - my heart is full for you all will be well my darling. I know that feeling of envy....looking at people who have no idea what is racing around in our minds. I think any parent who has had the agony of loosing a child appreciates so much more each and every other child they have. There is nothing like a mummys love....nothing.....nothing on this earth or in this universe BUT a mummy who has loved and lost a child just knows what the important things in life are. They KNOW, they just KNOW the joy of that first smile, first steps etc etc. I know all of us would live in a cardboard box with no money or possessions if we could just have our darling children back with us. All will be well my love...all will be well.

Im off out tonight tooo... to see Jane Eyre at our local village hall. Im sooooooooo looking forward to it....... I had SUCH a scary moment with Wilf this morning,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, He wanted to go up to the garage to show Neil (who maintains the bikes for us)how he can ride on two wheels now and as he wobbled out of the junction to go up to the garage a HUGE FULL CAR TRANSPORTER was coming the other way... i was soooooooooo scared and all sorts of rude words came outta my mouth!! He did manage to wobble onto the forecourt. No word of a lie in the sixteen years i have been in the village i cant remember seeing a transporter coming through!! Flaming typical!!

At the risk of intruding and telling you of something you are already aware of...

I came across a website the other day that I thought might interest you mums here www.glowinthewoods.com It's an American site full of extremely well written articles by a group of 6 mothers who have lost their children.

It begins..."For mamas of lost babies and potential of all kinds. In the beginning you stagger, disoriented, through this storm. We want to be a glow through the trees, a golden refuge of log and glass. Stumble up the steps, shake off the snow and the crust and the stiffness, cross the threshold to be encircled by figures welcoming, nodding, easing you to a roaring fire and piping hot tea and wine and whoopie pies and whatever else warms you from the inside out.

Sink into a battered old sofa, tuck your feet under your legs, a woodsmokey quilt around your shoulders, fingers wrapped around a hot mug, and be with us."

x

hi girls ,love to you all and fmn big hugs,your doing so well.
well i have had girls all day will dd went to wedding,they came back at 7.30pm for girls and dh was amazed when dd said going injeans and tops but i managed to find 2 new dresses for the girls and my friend had bought amelia a new frilly dress,they looked like princess.
when i dropped them off i said to girls dont get drunk will you,and eldest gdd turned to me and said all serious i will be ok if i drink orange juice me and dh chuckled all way home xx

hi little yellow bird..

you are most definately not intruding ... you are always welcome on here how are you and your family doing ?

i've had a quick look at that link it looks fab.. will need to find time to sit down and read it properly

Morning all.....................xxxxxxxxxxxxx Pouring with rain here!

...and here Lottie!! Good morning girls. Put new pics of Lewis on my profile. xx

And here!!!!

Shabs, he's growing so fast!

Yellowbird, I'll be having a look at that later.....

Hazy, I think it's so funny teasing little children about getting drunk! They take it very sreiously, don't they?

Lottie, hope Jane Eyre was good?

I had a lovely evening but I feel awful this morning. Just so tired. I kept waking up all night with indegestion, which I really hope was from the restaurant and not the cake I'd made!! I joked about the cake being really crap, so I just hope all the other ladies are OK and that I don't get the blame for a food poisoning outbreak

The play was fan bloody tastic.... my friend Tom was playing Mr Rochester and he was brilliant..... Wilfs come home from Mummy2's and gone out again lol!!!

sorry girls .. but I had to tell you its lovely here.. have been sitting in the garden with my book ....

glad you had a good time lottie..

its lovely here too just finished work x

its lovely here too just finished work x