24 years since I held my baby boy

[24yearswithoutmybeautifulboy]

I cant believe it's been so long, the days have been so long, but the years so short.

My gorgeous little Scott Dot who fought his way through so many health problems for the first couple of months of his life, only to be cruelly taken after a few short weeks at home.

He was the most beautiful boy, with the biggest, darkest eyes, and beautiful dark hair, and the biggest feet I've ever seen on a baby 🤣 he also had THE biggest attitude I've ever seen in a baby when the mood took him too.

He taught me how to love, and was the first person to ever love me unconditionally, he taught me how to fight, he melted my heart that had been hardened through years of abuse as a child, and I think about him and miss him every day.

I only had him for such a short time, but he was such a blessing to me. He was so loved then, and is still so loved now. He has his little sister with him too sadly, but I really believe they are together.

I'm also going to shamelessly show him off, because if a Mum can't show off her gorgeous baby on MN, then where can she? 😊

Can anyone guess which photo shows the results of the first time I ever dressed a baby? Plus we have the obligatory 90s photo of baby in with a whole bunch of teddies. Then him in his favourite outfit.

My dc and I will light a wee candle and have some angel cake for him tonight, as we always do.

Thank you for reading 💐

Oh OP, Scott is absolutely beautiful, and I’m not just saying that. He looks like a right wee character and so happy. I am so sorry that he was taken from you. xxx

I started reading and when I saw Scott's photos they were familiar; and then I remembered your previous thread about him. Such a dear little boy and so obviously loved. Thank you for sharing your beautiful son and daughter's lives with us.

I also remember your last thread about your darling Scott and his lovely face is unforgettable.

Your love for him and your little Emma shines through your posts.

I am so sorry you have suffered such loss.

I remember your last thread and your beautiful little boy Thank you for telling us about him, and about Emma. So much heartache.

thank you for sharing your lovely photos of your gorgeous little boy, I remember him from your previous thread. I will light a candle on Sunday for him and Emma ❤️❤️❤️

I had a feeling fron the title that we were going to see lovely wee Scott again! How nice to see his wee face and his hair and his smiling eyes.

Sending love op, and thinking of Emma too. You've had a hard road. Love to your family xx

I remember little Scott from a previous post you wrote about him. What a gorgeous boy and you write so beautifully about him.

What a beautiful boy. He reminds me of my DS as a baby. I love the picture where you can really see his feet. I'm so sorry for your loss and for your second loss of Emma. I'm glad you feel they are together and you'll see them again. The years are short. 💐

What a beautiful boy! Sending you lots of love and thinking of Scott and Emma.

Thank you everyone.

I am in tears that so many of you recognise my lovely boy from my other posts over the years.

He was just so perfect and was taken far too soon, but I'm still his Mum and that just makes me burst with pride because he was mine, same with my beautiful Emma, if I had to go through these years of pain again just to get a short time with them I would choose it every time. I cant show them off irl, people get so uncomfortable, and I want to talk about them, and say their names, but other peoples discomfort at my pain means I've stopped even trying anymore.

You have all made a very hard week so much better, you've allowed me to talk and you've taken the time to acknowledge my babies, and that just means the world to me.

I cant thank you all enough (and I will be back early next year to show my gorgeous daughter off when her days roll around far too quickly).

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Oh my goodness, Scott has such beautiful and wise sparkling eyes. Such a beautiful baby and he sounds like quite the character. No wonder you're so proud of him. How lovely that was and is still so utterly loved by his mummy xx

Thank you.

He really did have wise eyes. I used to sing bright eyes to him sometimes.
I am so proud that both He and Emma chose me, and it really is some comfort that they have each other until I get there.

Thank you for your kind words about my gorgeous son.

What a beautiful little boy. I'm so sorry for your loss, OP - thank you for telling us about Scott and Emma. Your love for them is beautiful and evident from every word you post. I'm sorry you didn't get longer with them in this lifetime, but it is wonderful to hear about their characters and personalities. Sending you love.

This is heartbreaking, sat here crying looking at those photos. Beautiful

Scott dot is adorable. Your post is heartbreaking and poignant.
Thinking of you. Your memories of your beautiful boy will stay forever xx

@24yearswithoutmybeautifulboy you are an incredible, incredible mother. I read yours posts with tears in my eyes. Your beautiful babies are watching over you always. Sending you much love xx

i do not know how you can manage life with this tragedy always with you. I’m so sorry. Your little boy is so beautiful. I particularly love the picture where he’s in the little green jacket. May you always keep strong xx

Sending you my love. What a beautiful and much loved baby. So very sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers to you.xx

Oh OP, he is absolutely GORGEOUS!! What a lovely baby. I’m so sorry he’s not with you physically. I lost my daughter one year ago (plus a few days). I have found that it being almost a year since I held her (I held her right before we put her in her forever bed, with her tiny sibling who we had lost a few months before) is so sad. We always want to be with them, don’t we? I can and can’t imagine being where you are, and I’m so sorry and sending you a big hug. I wish he and his little sister were with you. It’s so nice to know how loved they are by their mum, and I can think I will be able to post on here in years to come to remember my lovely babies. Kisses and hugs to little Scott and his sister xxxx

And I just read your post about Emma. I’m so sorry she had such a hard time, and that the sonographer didn’t believe you. I deeply believe a mum knows. My baby girl was found to be very poorly on a scan, and the geneticist gave us a very long list of awful things she would go through. We made the very hard decision to let her go. The thing I think about is that nature wouldn’t have let her suffer. Sending love to Emma too.