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24 years since I held my baby boy

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24yearswithoutmybeautifulboy · 01/11/2022 13:12

I cant believe it's been so long, the days have been so long, but the years so short.

My gorgeous little Scott Dot who fought his way through so many health problems for the first couple of months of his life, only to be cruelly taken after a few short weeks at home.

He was the most beautiful boy, with the biggest, darkest eyes, and beautiful dark hair, and the biggest feet I've ever seen on a baby 🤣 he also had THE biggest attitude I've ever seen in a baby when the mood took him too.

He taught me how to love, and was the first person to ever love me unconditionally, he taught me how to fight, he melted my heart that had been hardened through years of abuse as a child, and I think about him and miss him every day.

I only had him for such a short time, but he was such a blessing to me. He was so loved then, and is still so loved now. He has his little sister with him too sadly, but I really believe they are together.

I'm also going to shamelessly show him off, because if a Mum can't show off her gorgeous baby on MN, then where can she? 😊

Can anyone guess which photo shows the results of the first time I ever dressed a baby? Plus we have the obligatory 90s photo of baby in with a whole bunch of teddies. Then him in his favourite outfit.

My dc and I will light a wee candle and have some angel cake for him tonight, as we always do.

Thank you for reading 💐

24 years since I held my baby boy
24 years since I held my baby boy
24 years since I held my baby boy
OP posts:
PrueHalliwell · 01/11/2022 16:16

I remember Scott Dot op, that teddy picture warmed my heart the first time I saw it and obviously made a lasting impression.

You speak about him with such love, you were both really lucky to have each other. It was meant to be, him your son and you his mum - I'm sorry it was only for a short time but the love and bond you both have will last a lifetime.

Sending so much love your way x

quietnightmare · 01/11/2022 16:20

❤️

Mydoggosarethebest · 01/11/2022 16:21

What a beautiful little boy OP. I can not imagine your pain and suffering 💙 So so sorry for your loss xxx

wizzler · 01/11/2022 16:24

Such lovely photos, and I remember your previous thread. What a beautiful baby, so much personality in that teddy photo

janie85 · 01/11/2022 16:24

All I will say OP is you are a beautiful person xxx

Stag82 · 01/11/2022 16:35

So sorry for your loss.

ghostsandpumpkinsalready · 01/11/2022 16:37

What a little beautiful Scott Dot x
Sending you massive hugs Scott Dots mum xxxx

IntrovertedPenguin · 01/11/2022 16:39

What a beautiful little boy. 💙

Thinking of you lovely xx

kerosene20 · 01/11/2022 16:40

Your son is a beauty ❤️ Thinking of you xx

Jmommy · 01/11/2022 16:41

what a lovely little boy ❤️ Wish he was still here in this world. So sorry for your loss.

AccidentallyRunToWindsor · 01/11/2022 16:45

What's gorgeous boy. Thankyou for sharing your baby with us. Thinking of you.

PeterPomegranate · 01/11/2022 17:12

I’m so sorry for your loss. The love you feel shines through. The picture with the teddies made me smile. What a beautiful boy.

Peoniesandcream · 01/11/2022 17:52

I've got tears in my eyes OP, I can feel your love for him through your words 💙 He was beautiful, I hope you enjoy your angel cake while thinking of him.

bloodywitchescat · 01/11/2022 17:54

I remember your threads about Scott Dot too, happy birthday Scott and a big hug to your proud mum

DreamingofItaly2023 · 01/11/2022 17:59

I remember a previous thread too OP. What a beautiful boy he was and I will be thinking of you all this evening.

BeautifulWar · 01/11/2022 18:24

Beautiful boy 😍 Those photos are adorable, OP. Big hugs and a huge amount of respect to you for having the courage to continue living and loving.

BloodAndFire · 01/11/2022 18:25

He was a real person, he existed, you were and are his mum. I am so, so sorry that you lost him. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

shiningstar2 · 01/11/2022 18:30

💐 so sorry for your loss op 💐

Ingrainedagainstthegrain · 01/11/2022 18:31

He's gorgeous. Deepest sympathies.

FabricPigeon · 01/11/2022 18:34

What a lovely boy, and what a lovely mum Flowers

InTheFourthAtMalloryTowers · 01/11/2022 18:40

What an incredibly handsome and alert boy.
He looks like he would have taken the world by storm. And so unfair he did not get to grow up.

I am so sorry for your loss.

My brother lost a very young child (to cancer) this year.
I am sure we will still celebrate her and mourn her 24 years from now.

These precious angels are never forgotten.

From one bereaved family to another sending you a big hug on this terribly hard day.

Battlecat98 · 01/11/2022 19:18

You write so beautifully about your lovely Scott. I am sure he must have felt very loved. Thinking of you today as you celebrate your memories. ❣️

Ilovewillow · 01/11/2022 19:23

Such a beautiful boy! Sending love Flowers

NairobiGal · 01/11/2022 19:25

I remember you posting these pictures before OP, because who could forget that face. Thinking of you x

DrFoxtrot · 01/11/2022 19:27

I remember him too, I instantly recognised his photos ❤️ beautiful, precious boy.