Toddler in hospital. Need a handhold.

[sobsanta]

DD is 2 and has been ill for about four days with what we presumed to be a heavy cold. She hasn't slept much and today took a turn for the worse where we had to call an ambulance due to her breathing being laboured while sleeping and sucking in under the ribs with every breath. Paramedics think some kind of upper respiratory infection as her chest appears clear. Epiglottitis was mentioned or possibly severe tonsillitis but they didn't want to check her mouth at home in case it panicked her.

DH went to the hospital with her as he's calm and collected and only one parent is allowed due to coronavirus restrictions. She's a daddy's girl anyway so she'll feel safe with him but I'm kicking myself that I can't be with them both. Haven't heard anything yet and they've been gone about an hour.

Am terrified and need distraction as I know there's nothing I can do and she's with the best people.

Message from MNHQ: Please note, very sad update further down the thread

thinking of you, your family and little wyatt rose x

So terribly sorry to read this tragic news. Wyatt Rose is such a beautiful and lively little girl in the gorgeous pictures you have shared with us all .
There are no words , everything I write seems inadequate.

I’m so sorry. I know our words are from faceless strangers but please be assured your family is being thought of all over the world and much love is being sent 💗

I am so so sorry for your loss, Wyatt Rose was so beautiful, I can't even see the keyboard as my eyes are filled with tears for you all. Thinking of you xxx

I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking about you all today 💐

I'm sobbing reading this, how absolutely heartbreaking. I have a 16 months old Dd and I can't even begin to imagine what your going through.

Sleep tight little girl 💗

Tears rolling down my face....I feel your pain and wish I could take it away xx

Jesus. OP I'm so sorry to read this. There are literally no words but life is so unfair.

Just checking in with you OP, how are you today? No need to reply if you can't face it. So many of us are thinking of you all X

Sobsanta your beautiful girl has touched the hearts of all of us, and none of us here will ever forget her. It is little consolation, but I hope you can take some small comfort in the knowledge that so many have shared your tears and grief over her passing x

Your dear little girl is beautiful, but more than her beauty what shines out in the photographs you have shared is her character. You can see that she is a bundle of energy, full of smiles and joy, the sort of child who is curious and engaging through the whole day from the moment they wake .

Please accept my deep condolences for your family’s loss.

Just read the newspaper story and have donated to the crowdfunded your friends have set up xxx

Strangers really do care.

I still remember Maude, Beatrice and there are two little boys who died whose names I didn't know but whose mums I do remember.

for the children.

Please ask the coroner about Myocarditis, when you have contact with them. A friend lost her toddler in quite similar circumstances (recent viral symptoms, seemed to be picking up a bit) and myocarditis turned out to be the cause of death.

I’m so, so sorry for your loss x

I remember Mia. The beautiful little redhead who died suddenly. Her parents established Mia’s wood in her memory.

So sorry for your loss.

Your Wyatt will be remembered 🌹 I can promise that.
Sending you so much love and strength

I am in absolute tears reading this. I am so so sorry at the loss of your beautiful little girl. Thinking of you and sending you all our prayers

Checking in.

I've been utterly numb for days now. I can talk about her, see her photos and it's like it isn't real. I feel an absence but I don't feel any pain. It's so weird to see people crying for you and you're not able to cry.

We planned her funeral with the funeral directors yesterday. A few tears came but not as they should. It's all so odd and removed from me. A bereavement counsellor has been in touch and is coming out Monday to talk to us about options for counselling via Wish Upon A Star.

Tonight sleep paralysis is back. I get it usually around 4-5 times a year but tonight it's every time I fall asleep. Weird things happen with the walls and ceiling and I wake up gasping but then fall straight back to sleep into another one. I've had to come downstairs as I keep waking DH but I don't want to sleep alone. The house is too quiet and making weird noises I haven't heard before. I'm still numb.

She's finally been moved today to begin autopsy procedure too. Maybe that's kicked it all off? That my brain is still working but keeping me numb? I don't know.

@sobsanta your pain radiates through your messages,I'm so sad and sorry for you.you didnt deserve this ,Wyatt should be with her mummy and daddy and sisters. I don't know what to say,I wish it wasnt so.

@sobsanta I’ve been thinking of you and Wyatt since I read your updates. Keep talking about her if it helps you. We’ll remember her

I can't imagine the pain of this @sobsanta. Wake your DH up, you shouldn't be alone feeling this grief. Life is so cruel and I'm so sorry.

Letting DH sleep for now. I'm ok watching mindless tv for now and DH doesn't function as well without sleep so I know I'll need him tomorrow.

I'm finding myself annoyed about little things. Like how it's £1500 to buy the deeds to her plot so DH and I can someday be buried with her. It's an expense we're willing to pay from the sheer generosity of people who have donated to the funding page but it's outrageous. The funeral director says it raises every few years so while we may not want to buy it now, we'd need to in future anyway at a higher cost. I don't know why that's stressing me of all the things but of course it is.

Thinking of you, OP. I imagine it's a lot to process so your brain is putting up a bit of a wall as a protective mechanism, as you say. Grief takes its own path.

£1500 is a lot, even with the cost of land. I'm glad you're able to find it from the donations.

I'm so sorry for your loss OP, Wyatt was a beautiful little girl, RIP .