Toddler in hospital. Need a handhold.

[sobsanta]

DD is 2 and has been ill for about four days with what we presumed to be a heavy cold. She hasn't slept much and today took a turn for the worse where we had to call an ambulance due to her breathing being laboured while sleeping and sucking in under the ribs with every breath. Paramedics think some kind of upper respiratory infection as her chest appears clear. Epiglottitis was mentioned or possibly severe tonsillitis but they didn't want to check her mouth at home in case it panicked her.

DH went to the hospital with her as he's calm and collected and only one parent is allowed due to coronavirus restrictions. She's a daddy's girl anyway so she'll feel safe with him but I'm kicking myself that I can't be with them both. Haven't heard anything yet and they've been gone about an hour.

Am terrified and need distraction as I know there's nothing I can do and she's with the best people.

Message from MNHQ: Please note, very sad update further down the thread

I’m so sorry. Devastating. Such a gorgeous little girl.

I'm so sorry thinking of u.

So very, very sorry. X

So very sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. I can't even imagine your pain 💔 xxx

I rarely post on here but could not leave this thread without saying how very sorry I am for your loss. A beautiful girl. I'm thinking of her tonight 🧸🌈

How do you do this? Just...all of it. This is not my first experience with death, my mum and my Nan who both raised me died within six months of each other when I was seventeen. But this, this is another level. I feel like the moments of numbness are just my brains way of protecting me from feeling so I don't die from it. The pain is constant. When it's not aching it's sharp and then I'm hollow.

I'm going to post in bereavement soon but I want to stay here longer. It doesn't feel right that it's in 30 days only now. I don't want to lose one bit of her.

I don't know, Sobsanta. I guess one minute at a time. Just keep breathing. I've been thinking of you and your family, sending you loving wishes. I firmly believe that there is a life after this one, that we go on.

She is beautiful Sobsanta.

Still thinking of you x

My heart is broken for you, the sheer strength you have is honestly astounding, it might not feel like it now. I wish i knew you IRL and could give you a hug, im outskirts of Bristol, so if you are local, feel free to get in touch. Your little girl is beautiful, a true Angel. Im so sorry shes gone to sleep too soon xx

I'm so sorry for you & your family.

@YetAnotherBeckyMumsnet might be able to advise about moving the thread for you?

There are no words but please know that my heart is breaking for you and your family.
She is clearly such a loved child by so many.

I'm so sorry. I can't stop thinking of you and your beautiful girl. I can't even imagine the pain you're going through right now. I'm just so sorry. Life is so unfair

Sending my love. I just can't believe it. In my thoughts xxx

Absolutely heartbreaking. I’m so sorry for your loss. A beautiful little girl. I’m sending so much love to you all. ❤️

Absolutely heartbreaking I am so so sorry OP. She is so beautiful.

I am so so sorry @sobsanta 🧡 My heart is aching for you xx please be kind to yourself and give yourself time to grieve xx

So, so sorry to hear of your loss. Sending lots of love and prayers for strength your way.

This is heartbreaking, I am so so sorry for your loss.

I am sure the thread could be moved elsewhere so it can be kept.

Oh sweetheart how utterly heartbreaking. Wyatt Rose is so beautiful, I'm so sorry for your loss.

HQ will move this thread if you ask them too

Oh sobsanta. I’m so sad for you. What a devastating and cruel loss. Thinking of you and beautiful little Wyatt Rose 🌹💔

I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing her cheeky wee smile with us x

There aren't really any words, but I couldn't read and not respond. Please know that my wife and I send so much love your way.
Wyatt Rose was beautiful 🌹 xxx

My heart is aching for you @sobsanta

RIP Wyatt Rose 🌹

Oh your beautiful girl.. I can't be the only one sobbing and struggling to comprehend, it must feel like the world has stopped turning. I wish I could throw my arms around you all and shield you from this pain. Love her with all you have and hold your DH and children so tight, be there for each other and just find a way through each passing day. Life is so fragile, so far beyond our control.. but love is eternal and is a thing that will never fade.
Sleep tight little one, the angels are singing just for you.

I just came down from bed. I can't sleep. Our room is close to hers and her door is closed. I've spent so many nights awake listening to her softly (and often loudly) snore that I can't cope with the silence. Even DH is no longer snoring. The bigger DD's are sleeping. It's so quiet and empty now. I don't know what to do in this silence.