Husband died today

[looklauren]

How do I go on? I am so scared, I depended on him for so much and we have 5 children. I have so many feelings of guilt. I was so cross with him for being a workaholic and never being with us. He had a heart attack... He was 33..

You poor thing this is tragic, hug’s.

Here to say so very, very sorry to saddened by your news, Lauren. Thinking of you and your children and sending big hugs xxxxxx

Hi Lauren I lost my husband in similar circumstances in February. We are in our 30 s also and have 4 kids. I posted on here at the time.
I can only say that i know exactly what you are going through and the rail of heartache it leaves for you and the kids. Im so sorry for your loss. I have lost over 2 stone in weight as I just have no interest in food. I m finding the lockdown so tough as we cant even have our family for support.
It still takes my breath away at times throughout the day and like you i feel like i just dont know how i will manage to go on without him.
We had so many plans for when the kids were older and now theres just a massive hole where our future was supposed to be.
Im sobbing as i write this so no help but just so you know you are not alone. Im in the same dark place as you with no light at the end.

I came across this thread again by accident. It’s almost a year. I feel sick when I think back to this time - absolute trauma. Those first nights without him by my side... 💔

I found out he probably had diabetes which explains why we struggled for so many years - I knew something was off. Even the children commented on how distant and withdrawn he was. Such a waste. I don’t know how people cope without a faith. It’s the only thing that’s made sense of it.

To those who said my children would get me through this - you were absolutely right. They have been my rock. I can’t believe how far we have come.

Struggling so much as his anniversary approaches though..

Ah op, a year which I am sure has been the slowest and fastest year of your life.
It gets easier with each and every year, there will always be those hard hard days, but overall you life will continue to grow around your loss. Sending you and the DC hugs.

Thank you so much. It’s so comforting to read back over these lovely posts.

Sending you hugs OP xx