YG, am thinking of you today, and praying for you too. I am really sorry if I ignored the fact of Nigel's death when we met, I know I said I was sorry, did not know what else to say. It felt strange to me to meet you for the first time so soon after you were bereaved, and I knew so much about it through MN, and not through you, if that makes any sense. Anyway, if I added to you distress at all I am truly sorry.
To echo what many others have said, I think that you are an amazingly strong woman and are coping really well. Choosing a headstone, sorting out his clothes, doing each new thing without him are going to be so hard, I hope that knowing so many people are thinking of you and praying for you will help you every step of the way.