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Tonight I am really missing him.

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Yorkiegirl · 17/09/2006 23:14

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harpsichordcarrier · 17/09/2006 23:39

sending love YG xx

lisalisa · 17/09/2006 23:40

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VeniVidiVickiQV · 17/09/2006 23:42

xxxx

marthamoo · 17/09/2006 23:43

bubble's right - it will get easier, it won't go away, but it will get to be more...oh I don't know...it will become part of what you are, the new you. But you can't fast forward it - because each step of that grieving is what gets you to where you need to be. There's no easy way of doing it - it's just hard

Yorkiegirl · 17/09/2006 23:46

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biglips · 17/09/2006 23:48

here is a big hug to you {{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}} xx

Gingerbear · 17/09/2006 23:51

Not out of line at all. I feel like anything I say is hollow and must have been said a thousand times, not to you, to anyone.
My boss at work - his wife lost a baby when two days old, NO-ONE said a thing to him. I said 'I am so sorry, you must feel awful' and he broke down.

Yorkiegirl · 17/09/2006 23:52

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Gingerbear · 17/09/2006 23:53

so true, so very true.

bubble99 · 17/09/2006 23:53

Not at all, Yorkie.

When people literally cross the road rather than having to deal with the 'not knowing what to say...so saying nothing'thing. It's difficult.

Marina described the 'having to go through a series of public 'meltdowns.' thing. And it's true. Kind words will do that..but they have to be said. Those words may make you feel worse at that moment in time but they'll also help the whole awful thing to become more 'real.'

marthamoo · 17/09/2006 23:55

It's good advice, YG. Years ago I vaguely knew a girl at a Mums and Tots group I went to - only to chat to. The last time I saw her there she was very pregnant and I did that "haven't you had that baby yet?" thing (that everyone pregnant hates). Then I heard that she'd had the baby - a little girl - and she had had something wrong with her lungs and had died at a few days old. The first time I saw her afterwards was on the main shopping street where we used to live - my first instinct, and I'm ashamed of this, was to duck into a shop doorway and pretend I hadn't seen her - I just didn't know what to say. But I didn't - I couldn't even speak, I just went up and gabbled something and then burst into tears - so did she, and we ended up hugging in the middle of the shopping centre. But I got to know her quite well after that - and she said that, that the hardest thing was people avoiding her, like she was contaminated somehow...or pretending she never had a daughter.

Blimey, I'm waffling tonight...

misdee · 17/09/2006 23:56

it will still be bought up at some point. why ignore you? i dont get it

Yorkiegirl · 17/09/2006 23:56

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Gingerbear · 17/09/2006 23:57

I think that is the thing bubble and yorkie, people are frightened or embarrassed of any potential reaction from the bereaved person.

misdee · 17/09/2006 23:57

does it feel real yet? errrr wtf??

Yorkiegirl · 17/09/2006 23:58

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snowleopard · 18/09/2006 00:01

Thanks YG, people need to be told what to say and I will remember your words. I think the problem is people are afraid if they bring it up the bereaved person might get more upset there and then and be embarrassed that they broke down in public. Or they might not want to have to go over things again. I know that sounds stupid because it is with you all the time.

I recently went to a party where I knew there would also be some people who had lost their first child at birth, around the same time as I had DS. I was originally going to take DS but agreed with the host beforehand that I wouldn't. But when I walked in everyone I knew asked me loads of questions about how DS was getting on etc. I knew these people had to listen to it all and I wanted to go to them and say I have heard about your DS, I'm so sorry. But I didn't - because I was afraid it would look like I was rubbing it in or that it would make it worse for them.

I hope at least in that way MN can help - you can ask to talk and know people will be here.

bubble99 · 18/09/2006 00:02

Exactly, GB. It's the 'elephant in the room.' thing. There, but not mentioned

Oh, Yorkie. I just don't know...

I hope tomorrow can be a 'better' day for you.XX

Gingerbear · 18/09/2006 00:04

Big hug Yorkie, I must get to bed. Will speak tomorrow, hope you feel a little better; please try and rest my love xx

Clary · 18/09/2006 00:06

YG just wanted to add my support. Yes of course you miss him and that's fine actually (well, not fine, but I hope ykwim). While we are still thinking of and loving people who have gone, they are still alive for us, I truly believe.

Hope that doesn't sound too corny but we still laugh about funny things my dad used to say and do and he's been dead for 18 years now.
I agree about talking to bereeaved people - after my dad died I just wanted people to say "sorry about your dad. Are you OK?" and just act as though it had happened but they were not embarrassed to mention it. Though I guess a lot of people are

jabberwocky · 18/09/2006 00:13

So sorry, Yorkiegirl.

CountessDracula · 18/09/2006 00:28

Oh love I'm so sorry
I wish it was different for you

My mum lost my elder brother at birth and she also said the worst thing at the beginning was people saying "ooh what did you have" and then the very public breakdown stuff, but I think it helped her enormously to talk about it with people. As a result I would never ever try to avoid a situation like that as I know how much it means even if it is hard at the tim.

CountessDracula · 18/09/2006 00:28

or even the time

threelittlebabies · 18/09/2006 00:38

Just seen this on my way to bed, and wanted to send you my love YG. I am thinking of you xxx

Californifrau · 18/09/2006 03:45

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