yorkiegirl You sound as though you're being such a brave lady.
I'm so happy that your husband is back in England where he belongs.
If you can find it in yourself when you go to see him again, you might want to take a lock of his hair for yourself and your darling daughters.
My sister did this when she was widowed at the age of 26.
She was pregnant with their first child as well.
She even took photos of her husband in his coffin, which some people thought was a morbid thing to do, but each person is an individual, and she found them comforting.
She also asked me to take photos of all the flowers at his funeral and to go back to the cemetary afterwards to collect all the cards that family and friends had written.
When my baby was buried we all wrote cards and tied them to helium balloons that we all released into the air.
You might find this comforting for your daughters to do.
Sorry for rambling on, but you have been in my thoughts ever since i saw this thread.
Your pics of your girls are abosutely gorgeous and a real credit to you both.
Take care. xx