My beautiful son

[minmooch]

After nearly two and a half years of a fight with cancer my beautiful 18 year old son passed away this morning at 11:20 am.

I am humbled by his strength and humour that he has shown throughout his short life.

Darling min

Remembering your beautiful Will today especially and thinking of you and sending the gentlest of hugs.

Dear Min you and your beautiful boy are in my thoughts. My heart is heavy and aches for all you have been through, for Alex and of course, for William. I hope you feel wrapped in his spirit today. X

Thinking of you today, Minmooch

Remembering your lovely Will, thinking of you, and sending love, dear minmooch.

Off for my walk - thinking of you, dear Min

Thinking of you today Min and your beautiful Will

Gosh- I can't believe it has really been two years. I read your threads at the time with such sadness. My own little boy was just a baby .You aren't biased- your son was so handsome and he sounds such an amazing boy.
I hope you are able to find some moments of peace while you are away.

Can't stop crying for you. It's Mother's Day tomorrow and I miss you. I want to run away and hide from everything. Hide from life and the loneliness. Hide from the anger. Hide from the bone deep exhaustion with the effort it takes to make some sense of this all. I'm so goddamned lonely I wish I wouldn't wake up tomorrow.

I lost so much when you died. Your life, your dreams, my hopes and dreams for you. Your brother lost his brother. My husband left me (admittedly on your diagnosis not death£. I lost friends. I made friends. I lost everything I knew and believed in. I lost hope. I lost love. The world lost you. It's just so terribly heartbreaking and I'm so tired. Always so tired.

for you all.

Having a tough weekend here. I often look at DSC playing and a wave of pain hits me so much it hurts. I know they would have loved you to bits. You would have completed our family.

It hits harder with the innocent comments sometimes people make.

I miss you.

Dear min
Thinking of you this weekend particularly
Xxx

minmooch, you will forever be his mother and he your son

I cannot imagine how hard tomorrow is going to be for so many of you.
Much love and strength to you all.

Thinking of you all, especially today.

Much love, Min.

Thank you.

Very little sleep last night. A night of tears and bad dreams. Hiding away today.

My love, my boy. I miss the very bones of you. Xxx

to min and everybody else missing their children today xx

Just seen this thread. I'm so sorry. I saw the pictures a few pages back and your boy had such a lovely happy face. I hope you're ok this Mother's Day.

There are no words..your words show such deep love for your boy.. I am so so sorry for what you have gone through.
My cousin died from cancer aged 20. The grief of his mum still haunts me 20 years later.
Thinking of you x

Min, I've been away from MN for severals weeks but was drawn back by the thought of you and Will (it must be that beautiful, albeit less orderly, energy of his swirling around again) and my promise to keep reading your posts as a way of virtually sitting alongside you as you carry your grief. I'm sorry for only belatedly acknowledging the anniversary of Will's passing as well as Mothering Sunday. Your sense of loneliness and fatigue are entirely understandable, and my heart aches for you. You have indeed suffered so much devastating loss, and I wish you hadn't.

The pictures you posted of Will are wonderful! They gave me a real sense of his wit, intelligence, kindness and joy, all of which show on his truly handsome face. What an extraordinary young man. And what an extraordinary mother you are to him. His sense of closeness with you and affection for you are also clear in those photos. He loved you so, and knew knows, in every atom of all that incredible spirit of his that you love him.

Are the lengthening days bringing you any interest in being outside or otherwise? I hope the sunshine is at least a small source of joy.

Well my darling boy I have done something rash- something that you would have loved. I have bought an old campervan. I can't wait for life to happen, I need for things to happen now. It was your dream to have a campervan and now it is mine. I am ridiculously excited about getting it - I'm so bloody sorry you are not here to enjoy it with me. Your brother tjinks I've gone nuts but in a nice way. I shall take your spirit with me when I go away in her. Xxx

I think of you often Min and I can't express how good it is to read your excited post. Here's to many adventures.

That has made me so happy, Min. I hope you have loads of wonderful adventures & should you ever come Sussex way I'd love to meet you for a .

Min, that sounds fabulous! I love that you are bringing Will's dream come true and pursuing some much-deserved happiness for yourself, all at once. (And truly, there can be no greater happiness than provisioning a camper van with wee dishware and the like -- just reading that section of the Lakeland catalogue fills me with joy.)

If your wanderings lead you to Dorset, which I would highly recommend as a destination, please do let me know. I would be delighted to share some or or just pass along a list of stunning spots to visit. Wherever you go, I look forward to hearing about your adventures.

Min. xx

Well it's here - the campervan! I've named her Wanda. W for you my darling, A at the End for your brother and the middle letters as part of my name.

You would have loved her. I've had such fun knitting her out - it's rough and ready but I've bought such beautiful, flowery, colourful things to put in. Tomorrow night is my first night out in her. I'm taking the dog and we shall think of you every mile we drive, every moment we spend in her.

I love you. I miss you. I am doing this for me, for you, for your brother. I wish you were here.