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My beautiful son

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minmooch · 26/02/2014 17:13

After nearly two and a half years of a fight with cancer my beautiful 18 year old son passed away this morning at 11:20 am.

I am humbled by his strength and humour that he has shown throughout his short life.

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LilyTheSavage · 20/02/2016 08:21

Flowers and hugs dear min

Badders123 · 20/02/2016 08:27

For a long time I could only remember my dad on the day he died in front of me...on that cold, hard hotel floor, all the light gone from his eyes, the crack of his ribs from the cpr....
But now I remember him as he was before that awful moment.
I remember my lovely, funny, gentle dad.
It will come to you too.
What you went through was so very traumatic it will take time.
Thinking of you X

minmooch · 20/02/2016 12:46

Just a few images of my boy, growing up and early on in treatment. Handsome gorgeous boy.

My beautiful son
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mrsjskelton · 20/02/2016 12:51

Thoughts and prayers for you Thanks no parent should ever have to experience this.

Badders123 · 20/02/2016 13:01

What a cheeky smile!! 😊

magimedi · 20/02/2016 13:04

What a good looking boy. Those blue eyes.

Flowers for showing us those, Min

minmooch · 20/02/2016 18:01

Feel like I'm sinking. How to keep going?

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Scootergrrrl · 20/02/2016 18:09

Talk to us. Tell us about your handsome, clever boy and everything you loved about him, and cry as much as you need to.

buckingfrolicks · 20/02/2016 18:12

I'm so so sorry Minmooch, I have nothing useful to say, but my heart goes out to you, an unbearable pain which must be borne. Wishing you strength and peace

Ifiwasabadger · 20/02/2016 18:29

My gosh, I've just found this thread. I can't imagine the pain you are going through, it's inhuman to consider it. I can just add my voice to the others, to say...one day, one hour, one minute at a time. There are so many people here to listen. Sending love and prayers.

minmooch · 20/02/2016 18:33

Where do I start? He was so laid back when born - he was a very relaxed baby who loved his food. He had those wonderful wrinkles around his wrists like he was wearing elastic bands!

He grew into a wonderful little boy. Full of mischief, yet very gentle. No rough and tumble with his younger brother. He didn't want the limelight (something that he hated about being ill later on), he was very much into telling me about his friends achievements.he had a very school boy humour, all about poos and farts and yet he was so intelligent. He lived in what we called Will's World. It would be like he had a conversation in his head in some extraordinary subject, then would jump a few levels, and then start the conversation out loud. It was wonderful to hear him backtrack over his thoughts and how he had got to where he had.

He wanted so much to just be a normal school boy. He sat his GCSE's at home in bed because he wanted to gain entrance into the Sixth Form on merit, not because he was ill.

He was brave, and funny, God so funny. Even in the worst moments he could make me laugh, as I could him. He was determined. Determined to fight until the end. Even though his Dad and I did not want him to do the 'last ditch' round of chemo he wanted to give it his all.

And yet the fucking cancer got him. After all of that. After the horrendous side effects. After losing his hair, most of his body weight. Learning to sit, stand, swallow after his op. Learning to write again. Vomitting every day for 27 months, usually numerous times.

Having wheelchair races with his mates - setting up a course that they had to take in turns.

He was extraordinary. And he died. And I miss him.

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Scootergrrrl · 20/02/2016 19:06

He sounds lovely. I'm so very sorry he was taken away from you.

wherethewildthingis · 20/02/2016 19:18

Your son sounds wonderful and amazing. Thank you for sharing him with us. I am so sorry that you lost him.

Thornrose · 20/02/2016 19:21

Thank you for sharing those pictures of your beautiful boy. I've followed your posts about Will for a long time, it's lovely to see his face.

Badders123 · 20/02/2016 19:25

He sounds amazing min
X

Cherrysherbet · 20/02/2016 19:32

I'm so sorry that happened to your wonderful boy. Life is so cruel. X

KimmySchmidtsSmile · 20/02/2016 20:01

Min, he sounds both kind and courageous and such beautiful photos, a lovely lovely smile.
Daffodil

hellhasnofurylikeahungrywoman · 20/02/2016 20:24

Min, what an outstanding young man. Words seem empty and worthless but I wanted to say much love to you and Alex.

magimedi · 20/02/2016 22:31

Min - my love goes out to you. Anything else I say is not worth it.

I really do not know how you manage to get up & put one foot in front of the other every day. And I know you do.

Sweetie, my heart goes out to you.

(((xxx)))

LilyTheSavage · 21/02/2016 06:58

Beautiful Will sounds so much fun. You paint a wonderful picture of a wonderful young man.

So fucking unfair. Just keep breathing and take each moment as it comes.

I'm here holding your hand. (((XXXXXX)))

mrsjskelton · 22/02/2016 08:52

Will's World sounds wonderful. Life is not fair but fantastic that he gave life everything he had. You should be so so proud X

LeaveByTheTownDrain · 22/02/2016 15:57

minmooch, Will is absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing his pictures with us. What a stunning smile. The sense of humour, gentleness, intelligence and bravery you describe just shines through those lovely blue eyes of his.
Just as your love for your wonderful boy shines through all your posts.

I'm so very sorry about everything you have all had to endure, and for the terrible loss you have to live with.

I don't know you except via MN, but I think of you and Will, and of Alex, very often.

minmooch · 25/02/2016 08:18

My love, my life, my son. You left us two years ago tomorrow. Two very long years. There has not been a day gone by when you have not been in my thoughts. I love you with every beat of my heart. I miss you with every breath I take.

I'm going away today with girlfriends who will look after me. I shall search for you in the clouds when Welly. I shall search for you in the mountains.

Thank you all for your lovely words. Will was amazing (as is his brother). I know I am biased but he faced his illness with such humility, such courage, such gentle strength. I am honoured to be his Mum. I just wish he had never had to face such horrendous times.

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minmooch · 25/02/2016 08:19

Welly - should read when we fly!!!

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magimedi · 25/02/2016 08:44

I am so pleased you are going away with people who love you, Min.

I will go down to the sea tomorrow & send my thoughts to Will (and you & Alex.)

Sending my love to you - (((xxx)))