Support thread for anyone who has lost a parent ( 5 )

[mummylin2495]

Here we are , our new home

Glad you àre back in cyberland ssd I used to get positively upset when I didnt have my computer. Now I have two and don't use either. One is old and the other is what dh ought me fr Xmas in 2012, its windows 8 and I hate it ! Now I just use my iPad.

Hi Lin I think it's called barrats sospphecix something like that!! He had an edoscopyvand found some redness so they investigated but he has very bad acid reflux which he is on tablets for.

How are we all.
Ssd brilliant news welcome back. Thinking if everyone else. Biscuits catch up soon xx

yes am on it all the time now!!

Welcome back ssd x
Back to gp with ds2 this morning.
God, I'm tired.

you must be

right ol howl fest for me today!!! FGS i want to hear her!! I want her to say im here for you!!! Tomorrow is the day she had her massive stroke, she was fine, talking today 2 years ago laughing about fish and chips why the bloody hell did she have to just dissapear out of my life!!

God i want her back i miss her so much
today i feel like my grief has smacked me so hard in the face its obliterated me..who would have thought id be saying grief in relation to my wonderful special mum f sake im so angry and bitter today!!

T....I wish I knew what to say to you :(
But yes...I felt like that last week after my aunts funeral. Just utter despair and huge anger.
The next few days will be very very hard for you. We are here x

yes we are xxx

have pm'd you t x

T I feel our pain. Likeyou it was a terrible terrible shock when I lost my mum too. I'm sure it is this that stops me moving forward at such a slow pace. I go over and over it in my head and none of it makes any sense. Like you I think how could I of been talking to mum on sat eve, then on Sunday morn she was gone with no warning. I understand your despair . We are all here for you x

Hugs to all of us a massive group hug (((())))
Lin so hard isn't it, i remembered its Sunday the 6th she had the stroke and then next week the 12th is when she passed. it is bloody hard to not feel like this sometimes, the despair and the void/loneliness and the missing over whelms at times doesn't it.

I can imagine though there must be double hard for you Really is a killer isn't it to think we were talking to them it doesn't make sense, i just know I seriously cant think too deep where i was going today it polverised me

Thanks Badvoc hope ds got on ok, and big hugs for you

ssd a good reminder, i am feeling less despairing now, although i know im skirting on the surface..

thank you so much guys, as you always know im here for you too, we are all together a little cyber family x

It's hard T. Very hard.
My dad was preparing to get dressed for a wedding when he died.
He was sat on the bed talking my mum about the hotel pillows.
Then he was gone.
Just like that.
The kindest, most gentle man I have ever known.
I will miss him for the rest of my life.

T, I cant say much to help you feel better as I know the bleak place where you think of all the what ifs and whys but I can offer an ear to bend and to know you are not alone in this. I have found such support and friendship here, even laughter in the most grim days.

ssd - glad you are back online! its weird how much you miss it isn't it

Badvoc how is ds now? and how are you?

Linn, How are you feeling? reading some of the things you say is heartbreaking but we all know what it feels like you. it is such a strange thought that someone is there and then they are not.

Sorry I haven't been around much been busy here and feeling abit lonely and down, haven't been much company to be honest!

badvoc - omg thats just awful, how terrible, the shock you all must have had i know oh so well the despairing feeling. Tell you what though my mum was saying some weird things on the day before though, she wasnt right when i looked back on it not enough for us to see anything though..

SM thanks hun, hope your going along ok, i know what you mean we have had some laughs in the darkness havent we x

we have, my grandparents always said if you don't laugh you'll cry. never understood but they've got a point.

Yes, the constant doubting and "what ifs" are crippling at times T.
Ds2 seems a bit Perkier but I hardly dare say it after last week....:(
Currently watching frozen :)
"Do you want to build a snowman?" :)

Omg if I hear that song anymore - do you wNt to build a snow man " arghh!!

My girls are crazy for that film! SAw a very funny film tonight. Babies day out! WAs laughing out loud! God I needed that!!

Glad ds is per kier. My youngest is full of a cold high temp bless her! X

lin i am thinking of you, we are here for you. ((hugs)) Hope your going along the best you can. Im trying not to do the 'this time 2 years ago' but its hanging round in my mind more and more. x no bloody clue- nothing had no sign that what was round the corner

Thinking of you too shall we shop xx ((hugs))

hi to everyone else, thinking of you all xx

you too t x

Thanks ssd. (()) xx

On hearing the sad news of Peaches Geldofs death, it straightaway has transported me back to when my sister died. She was just one year older and I know the devastation her family will be feeling. My sister also left a young daughter, who sadly dosent remember her mum at all. It is a tragic loss to the Geldof family and I send them deepest sympathies.

Very eloquently put, Lin.
Tragic for her family.
RIP.

god its beyond tragic isn't it Lin, so very very sad! I cant imagine how her family are feeling and them poor children.

Do they know what happened? she lived in Kent x

Well got through the time of my mum having her stroke, been hard to not think of this time 2 years ago but ive tried to do this. Ive had sad times though!

i have had good news job front though after 3 years of temping, im being taken on at my contract for a fixed term contract!!!! i believe my mum brought that job to me! although i wish i could hear her say "well done t" and throw her arms around me

Im over the moon, the stability for my family and knowing we will have incoming money is so very relieving rather that my work starting and stopping and contracts coming to an end!!

so a tiny silver lining for april after all the crapness of it!! xx

Oh that's great to hear some good news for you t when will your contract start ? How many hours will you be working ? Much easier to plan stuff when you have a regular income isn't it. Glad you have got through your sad day.
Yes I saw that she lived there , it's terrible

Good news at last...lovely :)

Hope you are all doing ok and taking care of yourselves as well as everyone else. It's a lovely sunny day today which does lift the spirits a little bit.had a lovely morning catching up with an old friend that popped round. She was there when I got the call about my mum and was very kind at that time. Talked so much I now have a sore throat !