Badvoc So sorry to read the latest- I can identify with the stress you're under and it is just beyond hideous. It's so hard to take care of yourself when one parent is ill and you're grieving for the other one. Are friends/relatives/neighbours offering help/support? If so, I hope you're able to take them up on it in some way. I know I have struggled to do so but I'm trying to let others help where they can.
mummylin I smiled as I read about the beans from your mum. Hope you enjoyed them :)
mama I, too, was moved and heartened by your post; thank you.
I am on a campsite in France which has been lovely, although I've had a few breakdowns. There are lots of retired folk around and I find it very hard to see them enjoying themselves; having nice meals out and so on. I am angry with them, and I resent them and that makes me feel horrible, but it's just how I feel.
This evening, my daughter asked a question about street lamps which started me off weeping (tenous link re my grandad who used to operate street lights, and that made me think of dad as a boy) so then I ended up lying on an airbed in the tent making a noise like a wounded animal...I didn't recognise the sound coming out of me...just a wail of raw grief. It's so unbearable, so painful. Bit calmer now but still a knot of pain somewhere in my abdomen.
Thinking of you all ladies.