"Too Beautiful for Earth" For Sylvie-Rose and all our Angel Children

[chipmonkey]

For my darling Sylvie-Rose, taken from us just seven weeks after you were born. Too beautiful for this earth but I so wish you could have stayed nonetheless.
And for all the Mums walking this tough path. Let us link arms along the way and not be defeated by the cruel blow life has dealt us.

Its really sad. Her mum died from the same type. she is only 27 :(

miasmummy I don't know if it's possible to discreetly warn someone.

everlong I never thought it possible there could be anyone less than genuine here, I'd hate to think that we'd be on the 'guard'. I'm inclined to believe that it does happen though

oh tami trust me it has happened on here..I am sure a few times but the time a lot of people will remember is the time we had a whole thread pulled the whole debacle spread onto the rest of the board and it ran and ran for weeks..with distrust for all us bereaved mummies for a while.

It took a while for a lot of our regulars to make it back and some still only post infrequently to this day because of it.

IF you look at past bereaved mummies thread you will see any number of deleted posts .. all the same person ..so that will give you an idea of how long that person was on here before mn finally called time on them .. but boy when they did there was no hiding .. mn told us straight up and even provided previous posting names

fm That is awful. I guess a lot of it is on trust though, so it's hard to know who to believe. That is partly why I put my facebook on my link once, mainly because I didn't know how to upload photos on here (I do now :) ) and also I guess I thought I should 'prove' myself, as people were being so nice, so I wanted to show them what they were supporting iykwim? I have made some lovely friends too! Funnily enough I'm so dizzy at times, that I keep tying DD1's name on here, and wanting to call her DD1 on facebook! Mind you, this evening I baked some cheese scones, and put the cheese in the larder! Mind you my nan used to keep her cheese & butter in the larder

Well, refrigeration in itself is relatively new. People must have kept them in the larder before fridges and I'm sure they didn't go off that quickly.

that person had a few of us on facebook too.. had a blog .. had pictures the whole shooting match... I guess if you are gonna invent do it right ..

anyway ..cheese in larder is nothing .. I remember losing a tv control for a whole day .. was located by dh in the fridge that night and trying to do a load of washing with a dish washer tab !!!

chip They didn't, no. In fact I'm pretty sure that they used to just cut off the mould and eat the rest. I guess living during the war made people masters of frugality. My nan used to keep the dripping off of meat, in a little bowl (bleurgh).

Actually you just made me remember that the first fridge I ever owned, when I got a house with DS, was one given to me by nan. It was one she'd had for years, it was older than me, and never broke down. Mind you I can remember when bread went stale, now it goes mouldy!

I am here, just lurking at the moment, not sure if there are words to describe how I feel and am also scared because of the talk of trolls

Wow fm are you serious?! Did anyone ever find out why they did it? You've got to be seriously disturbed to create a whole online 'life' just to join in on a bereaved mothers thread. I mean nice as we all are I'm sure we would all agree we would rather not have found ourselves here!

I have been 'recognised' on here by people i know in RL through talking about Erin. Funny as i never would have 'revealed' as much about myself on here before. They pm'd me to say, but luckily I know they are as keen to keep their mn identity away from RL as I am!

lumps please don't feel scared sweetheart. How are you? I worry about you. I was wondering whether you've got the memory box sorted? I took ages to do mine, I hated putting all of Tamsin's things away, it was so final xx

fm Yep that pretty much trumps my cheese in the fridge

I have a friend, who's DP asked her where the Apple remote was; quick as a flash she replied "with banana toaster"

lumps if you're still there, please don't worry, I'm sure they sorted that situation out, and I know that all of the ladies on here, have been nothing but caring, and helpful to me. I'd never have got through this without them, and cannot thank them all enough, maybe having angels in heaven, makes mums angels on earth.

If you don't know how to express how you feel, that's fine too, you can just say you're feeling crap/better - whatever, it's all fine, or just know that we're here, thinking of you, your DP, children & of course Alice xx

I have tried to find the right words to describe the couple of times I was sucked in - there are not the right words to describe it. It has made me cynical and less likely to jump in with two feet and help others. Lump - dont be worried about posting on here. As in real life weird people walk amongst us.

Caz you are bound to feel the way you do my darling. If you ever need to talk you know where to find me. Sending my love and hugs xxxx

Since my grandson was about 2 he has asked me about his uncles. I have told him the truth (as appropriate for his age) and we often talk about them. He said last week 'When they get better and come back to live here can we have a big party? We have planned the party Today he said.......

Andma, you do know that M & G have died dont you? They wont ever come back and we wont ever have a party. His little face was sad and his bottom lip wobbled. I said that yes I did know that but I wish they could come back.

He told me that his Mummy & Daddy told him they had died. Im not angry with my lovely son and his lovely partner...I really am not. They have done the right thing because my grandson is now almost 4.

It has just knocked me for six. We had a good chat and I told him that I missed them and they are still my little boys....he ended up laughing and cuddling. I, of course, pinned on the stupid pissin' smile and realised that life is a pile of crap. I should have a house bursting at the seams with sons and their partners and children. x

Oh, shabs I suppose he had to be told the harsh reality sometime but it's so very, very hard. You will have that party, just in a different time and a different place.

He is a thoughtful little lad.....he has brought the sunshine back into my life. I just feel deflated and sad to hear such a little lad tell me the truth. I am stuck in time a little....stuck in a pool of sadness from 30 years ago and 20 years ago.

He's a very special boy, shabba. When is he going to be four. Our Harry is four at the end of April.

By the way, where is Bluetinkerbell? I know she gave up FB for lent, did she also give up MN?

At the start of June. He has been coming here every day while his Mummy works since he was about 10 months old. xxx

They are lucky to have you, shabs. My Mum lives too far away and MIL is a different story....

chip - blue is still on twitter but MN is on a break for lent, as well as FB. I'm missing her!

I miss her too - but have a look on the rainbow babies thread for some very exciting Blue news

ooo Whatever I've had a quick look at thread, can you direct me to a page number?! X has started shouting so will have to turn laptop off until naptime soon, so can't read the thread properly at the moment!

Caz not sure on page numbers as I'm on phone app but if you flip the thread to the end and go to my comment 20/03/12 and 07.41 How is X doing lovely? x

oh wow, that has made me smile this morning :)

X is doing well thanks. Down in his cot for a nap now. He is such a happy chappy and I'm still amazed every day he is mine and came home. I don't think the appreciation that I bought him home will ever wear off. I don't take him for granted that's for sure! :) Wrote a 5 month update on my blog this week.

Today it is 2 years since my 20 week scan with Belle and we found out she was a girl. and a year today since my very early 7 week scan with Xander. looking at that teeny blob on the scan and looking at him today is amazing.