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Love, like starlight, never dies... Our precious children sparkling in the sky xx

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CazandBelle · 28/06/2011 11:13

"Small was feeling grim and dark. He was playing toss and fling and bang and crash. Break and snap and bash and batter. Small said ?I?m a grim and grumpy little small and nobody loves me at all?. ?Oh Small,? said Large. ?Grumpy or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

Small said, ?If I was a grizzly bear would you still love me would you still care?? ?Of course,? said Large ?bear or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

Small said ?But if I turned into a bug, would you still love me and give me a hug?? ?Of course,? said Large ?bug or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

?No matter what?? said Small, and smiled, ?What if I was a crocodile?? Large said ?I?d hug you close and hold you tight and tuck you up in bed at night?.
?Does love wear out? said Small, ?does it break or bend? Can you fix it, stick it, does it mend?? ?Oh help,? said Large ?I?m not that clever I just know I?ll love you forever?.

Small said ?but what about when you?re dead and gone, would you love me then, does love go on?? Large held Small snug as they looked out at the night, at the moon in the dark and the stars shining bright.

?Small look at the stars ? how they shine and glow, but some of those stars died a long time ago. Still they shine in the evening skies. Love, like starlight, never dies?.

NO MATTER WHAT by Debi Gliori

Missing my beautiful Belle, a year to the day we placed her to bed in her garden. Mummy and Daddy love you, always. To the moon and back xxx

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shabbapinkfrog · 23/09/2011 13:50

have missed you love xx

lavandes · 23/09/2011 14:41

Hi Ladies x

Congratulations Mini wonderful news, and I love the name. xx

Well done caz not long now, you have done so well. xxx

Well I have just been talking to my family in OZ and heard new baby. He is absolutely gorgeous and perfect. xx

Minione · 23/09/2011 15:25

Thanks everyone! D H Is having a wobble about the name as people seem to be struggling with it. I wouldn't mind but he told his brothers before we actually confirmed and suggested Elias as a middle name( I'd suggested this as first name ). Why is naming so difficult ?

Caz. Glad to hear all is well, I know what mean about the hospital,I just wanted to vet out it ws so stuffy in there. Sending you a massive hug and thinking of you all, your littleman will where safe and sound in a few weeks x

CheeseandGherkins · 23/09/2011 21:30

Glad things are going well Caz, hope the time goes quickly for you

Mini Hope things are going well still :)

lavandes how lovely! :)

I'm feeling very stressed and up and down lately, not been doing that well. Trying to concentrate on others things, mainly ds2 who is doing ok but still in pain with his foot. He's so sweet and lovely, it's hard seeing him unable to move about. Few more weeks until another x-ray and we'll see how his foot is healing. Hoping he can have the cast off then.

Been reading through Scarlett's PM results again today, this gestational diabetes I have now has brought things up a lot. I'm more convinced all the time that I had it with her too and the PM just confirms that, they even said in it that gestational diabetes must not be ruled out. I feel guilty, angry, sad and worried all at once.

shabbapinkfrog · 24/09/2011 09:22

Morning girls xx

ILikeToMoveItMoveIt · 24/09/2011 11:03

Wow Mini, a huge congratulations to you and your dh. Welcome to the world Ruairi!

Glad you are both home safe and sound Caz. I should imagine you are counting down the days. Remember, have hope x

I'm not surprised you're feeling stressed cheese. The past few weeks have been manic for you all. Is it worth speaking to someone about your worries over the gd and the pm?

CheeseandGherkins · 24/09/2011 11:41

I'm going to take the PM results in to the next consultant appointment to show her, just for reference but we've no intention of trying to sue or anything like that. I just want to make sure that it doesn't happen to anyone else, it's a very big and reputable hospital too. Hopefully be able to talk things over with her and see what she says, she's been really lovely so far and very reassuring so I hope it will help.

shabbapinkfrog · 25/09/2011 08:25

Morning girls xx

Bluetinkerbell · 25/09/2011 19:34

Hi all!

How are we all doing?
Caz hang in there lady! Not long now! x
Mini how is your little boy doing?
Cheese I hope your consultant can clarify some things of Scarlett's postmortem! How is your son doing with his foot?

Minione · 25/09/2011 20:11

He's great. We've had lots of visitors today, everyone thinks he's gorgeous!

Hope everyone is ok, I feel a bit like I am in a dream at the moment!

Bluetinkerbell · 25/09/2011 21:20

How lovely Mini enjoy enjoy enjoy every single minute!

ILikeToMoveItMoveIt · 26/09/2011 07:50

That baby high feeling is amazing isn't it Mini? Make sure you get some sleep though, if you're anything like me you spend hours mooning over your creation rather than napping when you can!

Baby I is only a couple weeks short of 6 months old, how did that happen? I'm trying to savour these early months as our family is complete now.

frasersmummy · 26/09/2011 22:16

oh god ...

999 again on Saturday for mum...

this time last night I had a call from the doctor at the hospital making sure I knew that mum was very poorly and might not make it through the night
This morning she was still withthis but not getting any better.
Then all of a sudden the treatment seemed to kick in and she is doing great.. phoning and asking for sandwiches etc...
My head is spinning and I dont know what to think.. my dad and my brother are like oh she is recovered .. thats great ..eh 12 hours ago she was an inch from death ... could we not celebrate just yet...

frasersmummy · 26/09/2011 22:18

anyway .. mini huge congratulations ... its always lovely to have baby news on here

Caz hope you are hanging in there honey...

shabbapinkfrog · 27/09/2011 09:55

Morning girls xx

FM I know that feeling so well. Somedays my Dad will ring (usually he has had a few drinks) he will be crying about my Mum. He is not used to being the carer - my precious Mam has always been everybody elses carer. She has awful days and very good days xx

CheeseandGherkins · 27/09/2011 10:37

Morning. I've been thinking about Scarlett's headstone again now, we were in the process of choosing one before and it all got too much for me. I'm not sure I can do it yet but I want her to have a proper one, at the moment she has a cross with her name and dob on it. Some days are harder than others. It's been really difficult seeing photos of friends' children on facebook that were born around the same time as her as it's just another reminder of what we're missing and that she should be here.

I'm having a really hard time with this pregnancy too, emotionally. I can't even seem to believe that's it's real. I'm showing quite a lot now and every time I look down it's so surreal and I'm surprised all over again. I love and want this baby but I'm finding it hard to connect properly. I've even been feeling movements which I thought would help but hasn't. Sorry to ramble on.

FM you must be all over the place right now, I'm so sorry your Mum is in hospital again. How are you feeling now?

frasersmummy · 27/09/2011 10:51

cheese.. choosing a headstone is just a nightmare .. I had a few times of walkig away and saying "I cant do this" before I finally managed to make a decision
We went for a traditional shape but not as big as adult would be.

Being pregnant again is really hard ...what you are feeling is unfortunatly very normal.. you are doing really well. better than you realise

I have just taken today off to get my head straight .. which means I am sitting her watching rubbish, posting on mn and generally chilling Grin

shelleylou · 27/09/2011 11:39

Mini congratulations. I love the name and the spelling you've chosen hope DH sorts his wobble out soon.

CAZ hope your ok.

FM hope your mum recovers fully and quickly.

Shabs make the most of the peace lol.

Just thought id pop in and say hello. Been thinking of you all just been a bit manic here with DS starting school and getting things sorted for DS2's arrival. Been feeling very low with it as unless he comes in the next few weeks he will be born very close to DB's remember day. I am completely adament that i will go to the scene to lay flowers and raise a very small drink for him whether ds has been born or not.

shabbapinkfrog · 28/09/2011 06:43

Morning girls xx Everyone OK? xx

CheeseandGherkins · 28/09/2011 09:54

Morning. Another trip to the drs this morning, with dd1 though. New, stronger asthma pump for her and a day off school. Hopefully this will help and stop the usual cascade of steroids and anti-biotics.

FM We were really close to choosing one before but then, as you said, it just got too much. Everything feels so different this time, I don't feel almost 16 weeks pregnant, I don't even feel 12. It's a really strange feeling.

shelley When is it that you're due? Hoping DS2 arrives soon for you.

shabs

shabbapinkfrog · 29/09/2011 06:42

Morning girls xx

shelleylou · 29/09/2011 19:59

cheese DS2 is due on 25th of october for 3 and a half weeks left. thanks

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shabbapinkfrog · 29/09/2011 22:20

Oh Everlong - what amazing news. I am thrilled to bits for you and your family and precious little man Oliver.

I have been so miserable for days and your news has put a massive smile on my face....AND you saw him born - oh WOW.

Cant believe that 3 years have gone by since we first 'met' xxxx

Welcome to the world little fella - surrounded by love xxx

shabbapinkfrog · 30/09/2011 06:43

Morning girls xx