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Love, like starlight, never dies... Our precious children sparkling in the sky xx

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CazandBelle · 28/06/2011 11:13

"Small was feeling grim and dark. He was playing toss and fling and bang and crash. Break and snap and bash and batter. Small said ?I?m a grim and grumpy little small and nobody loves me at all?. ?Oh Small,? said Large. ?Grumpy or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

Small said, ?If I was a grizzly bear would you still love me would you still care?? ?Of course,? said Large ?bear or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

Small said ?But if I turned into a bug, would you still love me and give me a hug?? ?Of course,? said Large ?bug or not, I?ll always love you no matter what.?

?No matter what?? said Small, and smiled, ?What if I was a crocodile?? Large said ?I?d hug you close and hold you tight and tuck you up in bed at night?.
?Does love wear out? said Small, ?does it break or bend? Can you fix it, stick it, does it mend?? ?Oh help,? said Large ?I?m not that clever I just know I?ll love you forever?.

Small said ?but what about when you?re dead and gone, would you love me then, does love go on?? Large held Small snug as they looked out at the night, at the moon in the dark and the stars shining bright.

?Small look at the stars ? how they shine and glow, but some of those stars died a long time ago. Still they shine in the evening skies. Love, like starlight, never dies?.

NO MATTER WHAT by Debi Gliori

Missing my beautiful Belle, a year to the day we placed her to bed in her garden. Mummy and Daddy love you, always. To the moon and back xxx

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Heliantha · 16/08/2011 10:29

Hi Caz. I'm so sorry that you're having a hard time
I'll be thinking of you today ppm

Bluetinkerbell · 16/08/2011 11:45

Caz hang in there! you know where we are if you need to talk/hug/scream...

frasersmummy · 16/08/2011 21:29

caz.. its awful isnt it...

You just cant enjoy the pregnancy can you .. I remember standing in front of the mirror saying it cant happen twice..it cant happen twice.. didnt convince myself though...
That 6 weeks seems like a lifetime at the moment.. but you will get there .. will probs be induced early so hopefully will be sooner when you hold your darling baby

I swear I prodded my bump so much to wake him up thats why he was soo good when he was born , he was knackered and just wanted to sleep !!!!

I have been feeling really bad lately.. all the symptoms point to me being menopausal .. but my gp says I am not and its all in my head ..oh good that makes me feel a whole lot better

shabbapinkfrog · 17/08/2011 06:39

Morning girls xx

deemented · 17/08/2011 06:53

Morning folks.

Sending lots of love and big cwtches to all who need them.

I've had a funny old week. How do you explain to an autistic twelve year old that your first baby died? It's been tough. He's very literal and can only see whats here and now. He can only see that Ciaran isn't here now, and it's been nearly seven years, so why i am still upset?

CheeseandGherkins · 17/08/2011 08:40

Morning all. I'm 9 weeks today, can't quite believe it. Feels like such a long way to go and I'll be delivered early but probably not early enough to save my sanity as we lost Scarlett at 37 weeks. I'm scared just thinking about it. We decided to change hospitals and it's been the best decision we've made so far. I've already seen the consultant and been put on asprin plus I go back at 12 weeks to speak with a diabetic nurse about testing my blood sugar as I probably had gestational diabetes. Slowly getting through each day. DH isn't doing well but he's started seeing a counsellor now (just had the one session and another today) so I'm hoping that helps along with the anti-depressants.

caz hope things aren't too bad today for you.

dee (hugs)

hope today is kind to all xx

deemented · 17/08/2011 08:43

Cheese - i didn't know you were pregnant - congratulations! I'm 12 weeks now, and also a type 2 diabetic on insulin and metformin - if you have any questions just shout x

shabbapinkfrog · 17/08/2011 08:44

12 weeks Dee Grin Oh my word - really wonderful xxx

deemented · 17/08/2011 08:46

Thank you, surro-granny Shabs Wink We're landed.

shabbapinkfrog · 17/08/2011 09:03

Oh I like that job title....Im a honorary Gran to my bezzie friend, Chelles, two children (ha ha ha ha @ children - the eldest is 22) xx

CheeseandGherkins · 17/08/2011 09:23

Dee thanks, had a couple of scans already and seen the heartbeat which was reassuring :) There are a few of us around the same week it seems. I'm due to see the nurse in a couple of weeks now so I'll probably have lots of questions after that! I'm a bit concerned about diet though as mine is rubbish, I'm a vegetarian that doesn't like salad, much veg or fruit.

frasersmummy · 17/08/2011 14:20

hey congratulations cheese and demented .. its always lovely when once of is expecting,... hard for the mum to be but lovely for the rest of us Grin

shelleylou · 17/08/2011 14:51

congratulations cheese and deemented. Seams ages ago my since i was that far gone. Caz huge hugs to you and to anyone else who needs them.
My mum had DS for me last night to give me a break then had a huge wobble as DB is in hospital with a collapsed lung. The same one that collapsed new years day last year. I feel for mum so much as that kicked of a chain reaction of things going wrong in our familyin the following 5 months something happened to each of us. I'm finding myself worrying that dad will have another heart attack and something will happen to D. Keep having to remind myself its irrational to think this way and darent say to DP that im worried. Mums told me D isn't allowd to come early.

Minione · 17/08/2011 17:41

Hi LAdies

CAz Hope you are feeling a bit better today, not that I can offer any advice as I'm pretty much the same. If bump goes a bit quiet I just panic and start prodding! Poor baby, just trying to have a nap and there's me poking away!

Its the anniversary of Malachy's due date today. Dh hasn't mentioned it but there again neither have I. I'll go and see him tomorrow :(

Congrats Dee, I'm chuffed for you xx

FM My consultant said I could be induced early if I wanted to. I've a scan on friday so hopefully this will be discussed then

Shelley SOrry to hear about your DB, hope he is better soon, it sounds very stressful for everyone x

Hope everyone is ok

shabbapinkfrog · 18/08/2011 06:32

Morning girls xx

shabbapinkfrog · 18/08/2011 21:46

Very, very quiet here - hope everyone is OK xxx

Bluetinkerbell · 18/08/2011 21:52

Still on holiday with the parents! Sigh

shabbapinkfrog · 19/08/2011 06:20

Morning girls xx

shelleylou · 19/08/2011 11:40

Thanks Mini. It is stressful and very worrying. DB has been transferred to a larger hospital. He's got to have an operation today not got a clue what time he's going for it. Think i may just go into overdrive with chores. Want to get the Ds's toybox and wardrobes painted so think ill do that

shabbapinkfrog · 21/08/2011 07:47

Morning girls xx

deemented · 21/08/2011 07:50

Morning Shabbs x

frasersmummy · 21/08/2011 14:31

Hey guys

Its quiet up here chez moi... Ross's little friend in the street has chicken pox and is therefore confined to the garden

so all the kids are in thier garden so I am catching up with some housework safe in the knowledge that Ross has had chicken pox

I am mopping floors and cleaning bathrooms... I am living the dream me!

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shabbapinkfrog · 22/08/2011 06:44

Morning girls xx

Hiya LF - good to see you. xx

CazandBelle · 22/08/2011 10:07

LF good to see you. I can't believe L is 6 months already! Sorry to hear you've not been feeling too great though.

Um, marbles? What are they? mine are rapidly rolling away. I've more or less convinced myself now that X is going to die too. I sound like a complete mad woman I know. I just cannot trust myself and I swear I lose the ability to feel him in my constant panic about how much I'm feeling him. Like all my senses shut down. The poor boy is constantly prodded, poked, wibbled in an attempt to get him to kick.

I'm hoping if I can get to the otherside of 32 weeks still pregnant then maybe just maybe I'll start to pull myself together again even a tiny little bit. I'm 29 weeks now. Consultants appointment and scan on Wednesday this week.

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