doctor appt friday for DS (sicky, off-balance, bad ears)

[EdgarAleNPie]

right - he's had an anti-biotic ear spray for two weeks. he has been particularly sick the past week so its doing bugger all

my plan for friday is to ask

-for heavy oral anti-bs to realy kick the infection (if it is bacterial, as if its in the inner ear an exterior spray won't touch it).
-for a referral to a paediatrician (which i can always cancel if he gets better before it coes through)

• anti-emetics/ anti nausea pills? he's been keeping very little food down. quite thin.

how does that sound for a plan?

he already saw audiology, they said 'yes, there's fluid in his ear.' is there any point in seeing them again?

He's now been down with this since November. Gone from running and kicking a ball to staggering around the house and falling over. can't manage more than a few yards without support.

ok, any thoughts?

God bless you all and your little angel xx

I am so sorry for your terrible loss. Your son looks absolutely gorgeous.
Life is so fragile.
I will kiss my DC's many more times than usual when I pick them up from school today. Your post from Friday has struck a chord with hundreds and hundreds of people.

I am so sorry for the loss of your darling boy. There are just no words. My thoughts are with you and your family.

I see this thread often and still can't believe it is true.

I am so so sorry.

I think of you all often.

such love and joy in his eyes, thank you for sharing. you are in my thoughts, am so so sorry for you all.

I have the thread and have no words profound enough to offer you.

I would like to commend on how you have both dealt with this agonising situation, so dignified. The pictures on Mr Edgars profile are simply amazing. Your little boy was and will always be your precious little angel :)

Slinkyboo has hit the nail on the head - life is incredibly fragile. The poem that someone posted earlier (I'm sorry I can't remember who..) was also very moving.

Much love and strength being sent your way for the very difficult times ahead xxxx

My God - I have just seen this thread.

Edgar I am so sorry, I am thinking of you all.

God Bless - I will light a candle for you and ask my uncle (a Priest) can I have a mass dedicated to your son and your family.

x x x x

So so sorry rest in peace little boy xxx

thinking of you x

I'm so sorry. I've come to this late but will follow your request tonight ten times over.

Wishing you strength and love for the road ahead x

I'm more of a lurker than a poster, though I do post in the IPOAT threads.

It is shit for you, Edgar, and I am so sorry.

I think of you often. And send you lots of hugs.

edgar,only just found this thread and started to read it while wondering "why is it in berevement" .

So sorry for your loss.. I really can't begin to understand how you must be feeling.. your ds was such a gorgeous little boy, I know he will make an even more adorable angel.

{{{hugs}}} to your and your family. xxx

Thank you. It means alot to us that little positive things will come from this.

DS tree is a pretty flowering cherry, the vicar allowed us to dig up part of his ancient churchyard to plant his ashes beneath it. He is safe forever now.

This thread is for DS, as it was started whilst he was alive. Little one: Mummy loves you. Will always love you. we all love you and miss you so much.

Every mother will know how this feels in some measure - this is the minute spent waiting for the line to appear, the dread moment you realise you have spotting, the long ominous pause whilst the sonographer looks over the ultrasound, the time you didn't feel kicking for a while, the seconds spent by the midwife feeling for the heartbeat, the aching quiet when their breathing suddenly drops away in sleep, in the shop where you turn around and they aren't there, the instant they run straight out at a road. Those moments of devastation and shock that cut us down to primal anguish, the feelings that that only tears express as there are no words to cover them.
If this was all that motherhood held for us, it would be a very cruel world indeed. Yet there are the moments of joy - the clear blue line, the beating heart on the ultrasound screen, the kicking in the womb, the regular continuous pulse sounding out clearly, the gentle rising and falling of a sleeping babies chest, the warm slobbery softness of their cheeks, the comforting presence of their grubby hand in yours, their arms around you, their laughter. All these moments of joy our children bring us, those moments will keep us going. We are so lucky to have two lovely, funny daughters. If sometimes we feel cursed about Leo dying, if we just sometimes can't cope or don't want to carry on, i hope it doesn't last, and we feel blessed for his life as much as possible.

That's beautiful

Ever since I've read this thread I've hugged my girls tighter.

I am so sorry i cannot imagine the pain and anguish that you are suffering. You sound incredible though and i am so glad you have your two girls

I've only recently joined MN but since reading about your DS you have been in my thoughts daily.

There are no words I can say to help ease your pain and I'm so sorry for your loss.

Wishing you much love and strength for the future xx

That is beautiful Edgar and really captures the essence of motherhood.

Have been thinking of you and your precious family and hope you are coping OK.

R xxx

Your eloquence is amazing. Seems to me that it is the deep love we have for our children that engenders both the joy and the despair. And it is that love that sees us through it all.

Edgar. And family. You have experienced what any parent dreads.

I am in awe of you both.

Just awe.

I am thinking of you daily.

xx

Edgar you and your family have been in my thoughts this week, sending love and hugs PPM xx

The cherry tree in the churchyard sounds just perfect. How lovely that every year that tree will blossom in memory of Leo.

Your words are beautiful and so true: we do all experience those heart-stopping moments. For most of us, as you so eloquently describe, those moments pass. I am so, so sorry that the worst happened to you.

I have thought of Leo so often and ached for you and your family and all you are going through. You remain very much in my thoughts.

Still thinking of you all at this utterly heartbreaking time(I cant seem to find the right words to express it)
I can't imagine how difficult it was to add those post those pictures of your beautiful boy..he looks so sweet and full of smiles. Thank you for sharing Edgar family.
He will always be a very brave little boy. And he has so many people around the world sending love to him up in the stars. Adding my thoughts & love up to him from Albuquerque.

Still thinking of you all x.

What beautiful words.

I can only echo what Buda says: I am in awe of you as a family, and how lovely to have a cherry tree.

The tomato and basil shoots both came through yesterday (dd and I planted them along with the mass MN planting in memory of Leo )

I keep coming back to this thread, I don't know why...

Im sat here selfishly in floods of tears, I dont know you YET I feel your sadness.... I never want to experience it for myself.

You and your dh are amazing, please make sure you look after each other. You both have to be 1 for your dd's. They need you now.

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