Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

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For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

Morning girls xx

Morning all x

Morning ladies xx

Morning everyone...

So sorry to meet you here Too - Thea is a really pretty name.

Sorry I've not be around much lately and been really rubbish at supporting people.

I've been so busy planning Belle's fundraising day and freaking out about different pregnancy things. The local paper photographer has just left, an article about Belle and why we are fundraising is going to be in the paper soon. They've taken some pics of me this morning and have a picture of me pregnant with Belle and another of me, DH and Belle together. So I hope its written up really well now. (I haven't got a date yet, but I will link it here as soon as its up!) I'm a bit gobsmacked at all the attention at the moment - a 2nd local paper has also showed an interest in running the story too, so waiting to hear from them again aswell. We've been promised matched fundraising 5x over from a bank if our justgiving page reaches £700 initially, so I hope they keep their word on that now, waiting for it to arrive in writing this week. Its all a bit crazy really! I can't believe my little girl has inspired all of this!

Pregnancy seems to be going ok - sickness seems to have subsided for the last 5 days, which worries me quite a lot. (I'm 10 weeks now) But just gotta believe everything is ok for now. Next scan 26th April and it can't come quick enough . It is so different to Belle's pregnancy - hardly any sickness in comparison and an appetite of a horse when I didn't eat anything for about 13 weeks with Belle!

Hope everyone else is ok. Ilike you're due any day aren't you?

Caz you are doing a great job. Fund raising is a very difficult thing to do. Belle is touching peoples hearts everywhere. She will be very proud of you.

I have lost track of how many ladies are pregnant on this thread can anybody shed light on it? xxx

Morning all, not been around much so not had the chance to get to know you all. Just wanted to say though that sometimes it's so hard to read and hear about grief when you feel so bad inside yourself, that sounds so selfish but I'm really not. I had a good week or so and then a couple of down days again.

I'm going to try and stick around now as I know talking has helped a lot and also starting to talk about "normal" things, if that makes any sense? Well, I hope that's ok with everyone.

We're trying again now, 3rd cycle since losing Scarlett, last was 37 days long! Frustrating! Right near ovulation now I think, well day 14 but no idea when I'll ovulate with long cycles.

Will come and read back posts later, have to head out soon but I do think of the people on here a lot. xx

Hi folks.

Could do with a bit of a cwtch just now. My heads so far up my arse i can't see daylight.

Hope that helps my friend. xxxxxxxxx

It does Shabbs, it does. I keep thinking i should be ok. I've been through worse than this so i should be ok. But i'm not.

xxxxx

Caz, how do I donate to your fund? Is there a webpage somewhere?

Thank you all for the welcome. Axis, thank you for the thought re username! I did wonder about changing it but people know me now, so it seemed like too much hassle.

I wish I was one of the pregnant ladies! Good luck to you all!

xx

Sorry, Dee and C&G - crosspost as phone rang in middle. Big hugs from me too.

Too - hang around on this thread for a little while and you will be - I reckon its catching!!! Just hope it doesn't get me xxx

Massive hugs to dee xxx wish there was something I could do to help you.

Too our justgiving page is www.justgiving.com/anabelles-angel-day

Too - I'm so sorry to read about your daughter :( our daughter Scarlett was stillborn in Dec, I was 37 weeks. I remember feeling so numb at first and really like it just couldn't be happening to us. It still does feel that way at times but I've accepted that it's happened and am mostly past the asking why stage, although I do still think about that. I really can't believe how common stillbirth seems to be, before it happened to me I never really heard about it but now, so many. Maybe I just notice it more? I don't know but it seems so unfair to everyone involved, is it something just not spoken about??

Dee hugs.

shabba I hope it catches me too, it's all I can think about, getting pregnant again. I think everyone I know is pregnant or just had a baby and I see pregnant women and newborns everywhere, it's hard to see and deal with when we should have a baby with us now.

Caz hope things continue to go well with your pregnancy, can only imagine how you must be feeling.

dee big hugs ,my love thinking of you and manshape,xx
hello too ,not met before but im sure you will find these girls the bestx

Sending lots of love and hugs to you and your family dee I am so sorry xx

Hello to the new mums on here, I am so sorry we have to meet here but you will find lots of support and understanding xx

Well done caz

Dee - just wanted to apologise for my post at 12.20......just re-read it now and I feel a prick fool. It sounds so....so.....ignorant to what you are going through at the moment. I really didn't mean to offend anyone. Haven't taken my 'mad pills' this morning - and it shows!

so there I was puttering along nicely thinking this year it was going to be easier to deal with ..

and then wham!!! today I cant think straight... 7 years ago today we went to the hospital and they assured me Fraser was fine and sent me home....
all I can see in my head today is pictures of that room and the heart trace

it cant be 7 years ago.. it feels like yesterday... I hate that this never goes away but then I would hate it if it did go away iyswim

7 bloody years... it cant be! It just cant .. I want my boy back

sorry

(((((((((fm)))))))))))

I can so relate to the not wanting to be in pain but how weird would it be if it didn't hurt any more ? The whole thing is just so hard at times . I just don't fight it any more . When I am coming up to dates or at any other time to be fair and I can feel myself about to get on the roller coaster I seem to make a decision now to just let the flow take me whereever . I know that sounds a bit mad but the energy in fighting it is just too much sometimes .

Dee Just because you have been through the worst doesn't mean everything else is a piece of piss (unfortunately) it is just not bloody fair , you kind of think you deserve a break and you do . You and manshape are in my thoughts x

Too I am sorry I don't think I have said hello properly , I am so sorry you are going through this . This is the one place you can come and have a good old rant about anything and we will be here to listen .

cheese Glad you have come back , I do know what you mean about not being able to listen to anybody elses stories sometimes , we are all the same . Most of us come and go , sometimes we are the ones listening and other times we are the ones sobbing . Nobody is counting x

Sorry if I have missed anyone but I hope you are all as ok as can be today x

FM you know that you dont need to say sorry on here.

7 years is such a long time isin't it? I bet if someone had said on that awful day 'in 7 years you will be slowly 'getting there' (wherever the hell 'there' is) and time will soften the edges, except for Birthdays and Remember Days....I bet you would have ripped their head off and thrown it in the bin!!! I understand so much the 'longing' to see your precious little man. I am thinking about you xxx

Dee I'm so sorry. Completely agree with tw that just because you've been through the worst, it doesn't make other things any easier. Loss is always heartbreaking, and pain is pain. Big hugs to you xxx

Oh FM and Dee I just want to hug you both.... Just wish hugs took the pain away xxx

Morning girls xx

Sending love and hugs to you and your family today fm xx