Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

[lavandes]

For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

morning six months today since dh's transplant.... Two years tomorrow sine we lost our gorgeous wee lad. Think i am in need of a hug xx

You have hugs and a shoulder to cry on coming from Lancashire. xxxx

thank u shabs, my tears are very close to the surface today xx

MOrning all x

A shoulder and a hug here too PPM xx

PPM no wonder! You have had so much to cope with and you have continued to put one foot in front of the other and remembered to breathe. As my wonderful Gran used to say 'If you want to skrike (lancashire word for cry) love, you skrike....the more you skrike the less you pee!!'

aw thanks TW xx

You are always more than welcome xx

Oh Shabba, my heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your story with me.

Peterspansmum hope you dont mind if i send you a hug too.

My Zoe would have been 2 weeks old today, i feel so empty and alone without her. I keep thinking iam feeling her kicking away inside me.

On a different note, my DF and I have decided to get married this year which iam so excited about and it will give us strength to get through the days.

pmsl @ shabs!!! Strangely enough that word has never made it to snowy perthshire! Xx

Hello Janedoe, sorry i never even said hi to you, and as far as im concerned the more hugs the better LOL! have been feeling a bit low today. so sorry to hear about your loss of Zoe. My wee lad gregor was two when he died two years ago, initially it was thought to be cot death but after 5 months they found out via the postmortem that it was an overwhelming virus.

Jane, I am so sorry about the loss of your daughter. Zoe is a beautiful name. Take care xxx

Sending hugs and lots of love ppm xx

hugs to everyone here and thinking of you ppmx look afteryour self,xxhh

Thanks Lavandes and Hazy xx
I just spotted your news Lavandes - congratulations... that's lovely news xx

Can't believe it's 6 months since your dh's transplant PPM, what an achievement and a huge milestone.

I hate the days before the remember days, my head feels like a pressure cooker about to blow. I'm guessing you feel much the same {{{hugs}}}

DS and I were in the back garden this morning and I had to explain to M that the daffodil was Gregor's. I'm not sure if he thought I was mad or understood me - they have an uncanny knack of just knowing sometimes don't they?

Not read back yet, I can't, I'm not sure I can be here yet. I feel so shit and just nothing. For those that don't know I lost my daughter in Dec at 37 weeks, she was stillborn. I feel dead inside really. I carry on but I never thought this would happen, ever.

Morning girls xx

Thinking of you today PPM - sending my love, hugs and thoughts xx

Morning ladies xx

Thinking of you, your precious Gregor and your fanily today PPM xx

Sorry family xx

Thinking of you all today PPM, especially your darling Gregor xxx

Your post makes total sense cheese.

I remember lurking on this thread because I couldn't accept that I had become a member of the club. We'll be here whenever you need us.

lots of love for ppm today x x x

Cheese i feel exactly the same, i too lost my little girl she was born asleep just 2 weeks ago. I have only made a few posts here but find it helps a little.

i am having such a horrible morning, i didnt sleep a wink last night i just cant stop thinking that if i done things differntly Zoe would be here. If i went to hospital earlier? did i suffocate her by laying on my left hand side? (that is where she lay inside me) Why did i not know my baby was dying inside me?

Oh Jane I wish I could help you. Wish I could somehow let you see into the future for just a few minutes. Your grief is so raw. Eventually those 'if only' thoughts will soften. I still have times when I feel it was my fault that my boys died. BUT then I stop and think 'I loved them with everything I had, I adored them unconditionally. WHY would I be 'guilty' for their deaths?' You wouldn't have hurt your precious baby for anything, would you? You wanted to hold her and spend the rest of your lives hoping and dreaming great things for her. Its not your fault sweetheart - it truly isin't.

xxxx

Just wanted to say hi again as I mostly lurk.

Cheese, Jane my beautiful Niamh was stillborn at term 18months ago (has it been so long?) you will find a way through and the bad days will get further apart don't let anyone rush you in your grief, you don't need to 'move on' or 'get over it' ever, but you will learn to live with your heartbreaking loss.

take very good care of yourselves xx