Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

[lavandes]

For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

That made me smile :)

With my Uncle Billy who was the most tolerant man ever on the face of the planet letting them all run riot around him and smiling at them all in the way he used to

itis - I'm almost 29 years from loosing my twin baby (at 7 months) and almost 19 years from loosing DS3 (at 7 years) - when we are around the 'remember day' or their birthdays I totally and utterly loose the plot. Oh yes I pin my smile on before I go out of the door but my head is away with the fairies.

I've said this on another thread but my X-inlaws are fundamentalist Christians, and my MIL said some rotten things at the time that I am so so angry about.

But I didn't have the balls to call her on it at the time - XH told me I wasn't allowed, as it would upset her and it was what she believed

itis I think we could write a book between us all on stupid things people have said to us over the time . Even if you had told her what a prat she was it wouldn't have changed her , it sounds like you are well out of that family x

Oh I am so glad so often in so many small ways I'm out of that family

Oh Shabs, your Tom just made me chuckle! x

Thanks lottie for linking to that beautiful song.

Just wanted to link this one. Mattys primary school closed for the day so the children could come to the funeral. The church was packed full with people standing outside and in the corridors. There were about 150 children in full school uniform and they sang this song I fully suspect at least 20 of the adults were well on their way to being drunk there is a pub right opposite the church. The vicar asked the children to sing it again for him and by the end of the second rendition the 'said' adults were doing all the actions as well LOL. Matty would have been wetting himself laughing. This may sound very strange but it was a wonderful funeral - that sounds doolally - but it was - a fitting tribute to a smashing lad.

Morning girls xx

Morning all xx

Shabs I love that , I would have loved to have seen the kids (and adults) in action .

How you doing this morning ?

Hi folks,

I'm so sorry i haven't been around much of late. Sometimes it feels like i just need to step away for a while. It's such a contradtiction, i suppose.

I just wanted to tell you all that although i may not post much here at the moment you wonderful folks are never far away from my thoughts. Love you all x

Im OK thanks love.

When the vicar asked for it to be sung again I just knew we were in for trouble

We also sang 'Lord of the Dance.' BUT everybody sang the words Matt used to sing.....'Dance then wherever you may be, I am the lord of Gods settee!!'

It sounds like you have got a fab group of friends there Shabs

Hi Dee , I think we all do the same every now and then , I hope you are doing ok x

Hiya Dee xx

Oh I shouldn't think about his funeral - it was so wonderfully sad - if that makes any sense at all.

DH ran a football team (over 18's) at the time. It was those lads who I had to keep my eye on!! All in dark trousers, white shirts and ties. They knew Matty well and they stood outside with heads bowed while his little coffin went past. The day ended with a massive Barbecue and everybody singing all the songs from the day.

One of the boys said 'What a bloody waste of a little lads life....he was a nutter

Bless you little man - take care of yourself and your big brother....keep an eye on all the precious children on this thread. Even though you are almost 27 Im sure its totally fine for you to play Tigger with them all xxx

It does sound like he was celebrated in a grand fashion Shabs , and still is of course .

They will all be up there together causing bother and having a great time

Morning ladies xx

If a funeral can sound beautiful shabs your Matty's does. We played this song as we entered for Richard's funeral, it was one of his favourites.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAchKt2xjsw. I hope the link works. If not it is Pink Floyd Wish You Were Here. xx

I hope that our Richard is up there cooking fish fingers and chips, and his famous sticky toffee pudding for all the little ones. xx

I am useless at links. Hopefully here it is

Lavendes - it works!! I had forgotten that song - it is brilliant.

Richard if you are cooking for my lads can you remember that Gareth would kill for chocolate and that Matty loves Scotch Eggs....or rather 'Mam I wov the Scotch but I not wike the Eggs!!' So a big cake with white chocolate icing on for Gareth and a Scotch for our Matty please. Thanks sweetheart xxx

That's the first time I have listened to it since the funeral.

I am sure Richard could manage an eggless Scotch egg for Matty. White chocolate ice cream was another of his specialities. That would go down well. He was a talented chef. He was published in three magazines, The Shooting Times was one, with his recipe for lamb suet pudding.It was a great favourite on the menu where he worked and it is still on. We are very proud of him. xx

WOW I bet you are very proud of him. A chef is a very hard job. We used to manage a pub in Middlesex that had a small restaurant attached to it. I still shudder now when I think of the Christmas period and all the God forsaken piggin' Christmas Dinners we had to do. I take my hat off to a good Chef. Unsocial hours and very hard work. Your love for your lad shines out Lavendes {{{massive hugs}}} xx

3 years ago tonight I felt my little angel move for the lst time. She kicked such an almighty kick. I should have known then that something was wrong but I didn't. I let her down at a time when I was the only one who could protect her. I hate myself for that. And I hate what my life has become. How does time go by without your child? I still don't undertsnad it now, 3 years on. I still don't understand why it was me and her.

Oh FMN - you never, ever let her down. If you had known something was wrong you would have acted on it. You loved your little girl - like you love your other children. Im sorry you sound so down tonight.

I have no idea why such awful stuff happens - none whatsoever. Sending my love to you tonight, as always xxxxxxx

Hay Shabs. Should have known you would be here to try and pick me up. Thank you. xxx

Hiya FMN, thinking of you xx

Morning girls xx

Woke up before the alarm! So tired.

Ditto shabs x tiredness apart how are you today? Xx