Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

[lavandes]

For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

Had scan and everything seems to be ok! I seemed to be measuring further on than I was at the last scan but I was told the due date is still the same?!!? Anyway, I feel relieved and happy x

I'm so pleased for you mini xx

Thanks Lavandes. How are you? The weekend must have been pretty hard for you and your husband. Hope you are doing ok xx

It was hard but we survived. Just feel so sad at the moment. It is nearly a year now. xx

Afternoon ladies,
I never usually post anywhere else on this site but today I have... www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/1166411-Vodafone-World-of-Difference-and-Blogging There is a link to my blog which shows what i'm going to be doing with the Scottish Cot Death Trust over the next couple of months, come have a look and let me know what you think.

Mini - am pleased for you that all is well x

Thanks PPM. I've just had a look at your blog, what a beautiful and gorgeous little boy Gregor was. I think you're doing a really brave and wonderful thing and I'm sure your little boy will be looking down on you proudly.

Great news on the scan mini

You've probably heard us say this before lavandes, but many of us feel the build up to anniversaries is worse than the actual day. The day is upsetting of course, but after all of the upset bubbling under the surface for weeks in advance, it's almost a relief for the day to have finally arrived.

How are you doing *itsnotgoingwelltoday' ?

Happy birthday caz, hope you are enjoying London

I'm glad Friday night went well for you TW. I hate that bloody 'should I or shouldn't I say anything' dilemma. It's like you don't want to put a downer on things - which of course is just bloody ridiculous.

I'm now off to look at your blog PPM

Hello PPM. I don't cry much any more - I retreat to my 'sad place' inside - but seeing your beautiful smiling boy has prompted forgotten tears... My DS loved his Tigger suit too :) :( How can our lovely boys not be here?!? :(

Harry loved Tigger too , he was actually buried in his tigger suit .

Oh bugger xx

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Aw shit I'm sorry if i've upset you guys and anyone? x

ppm Don't you dare apologise , when I saw the pic of Gregor in his Tigger suit the other day I nearly said it has reminded me of Harry in his and then didn't say anything in case I upset you . We are loops aren't we ?

thanks x

Oh crumbs TW, so was my boy :( They'll all be bounding round Heaven trying to catch each other's tails :o It's just so NOT FAIR

Don't be sorry PPM - it's lovely to see Gregor & think of the good you are doing. Much love xx

Thanks folks - it's bad enough other folks tiptoeing around us heh let along us doing it to ourselves eh?!
I called three journalists today as well - I'm either coping better these days or have lost the plot altogether, am not quite sure which xx

Bloody hell Heliantha , that is some weird coincidence

I love the idea of them chasing each others tails . Bouncing around like loons and having a great time .

It has made me think about what C was buried in, and then I got upset for all of us because it is so bloody unfair that we have that to deal with.

So bloody unfair.

I do like the picture of the boys boinging around after each other

Hello ladies, i had a very special meeting this morning. In the churchyard where Jack is buried there are two other little boys who i will call C and K. I always make a point of going to all three boys graves every time i go to the churchyard.Today whilst i was in Ipswich shopping, i bumped into K's Mummy and Daddy. He was stillborn five weeks before i had Wilf and all my friends and family were sworn to secrecy not to tell me so i didnt get upset. We talked about other things this morning for a few minutes and then we got round to talking about Jack and K. I told them that i go to all the boys graves and K's mummy said how sad that there were three little boys there who should be with their families. She told me that she always tells everyone that they have three children and i said that i always say that i have two children. It was so nice to speak to them and know that they understood everything the same as me.......

You are doing a grand job ppm Just enjoy the fact you are doing some good and making a difference .

It sounds like you are getting your confidence well and truly back xx

Evening ladies.

Have been thinking of you all today - all different, with different stories but the emotions and feelings are so similar?

Yesterday I was feeling so ill that it wasn't as bad as I thought, but driving home from work today I was in tears, thinking about the relative that William was named for (he died on 10th March so v v close to when I lost my boy) and wondering what he would think if he could see my family and hoping that he's taking care of my boy for me.

Hi itisnotgoingwelltoday

I always visualise my grandad taking care of my boy. I can see the whole scene in my mind and it gives me a lot of comfort.

Hi its I am so sorry to hear about William , my son died in dec 2001 aged 14mths . I am mostly ok now , like you I am a few yrs down this crappy road but I do have my days when the grief comes and bites me on the bum .

Between us all we have some very special children dont we?

Just been telling Tom all about your DS1 PPM. Telling him how excited he was when it was Gregors birthday. I have just realised that my potty mouth DS4 said 'Bloody hell Mum I couldn't cope when my goldfish died....he must be a bloody great little lad!!'

What with Toms 'Bloodys' and our Mattys 'shaking balls' I think I have dragged my kids up!!!

I feel so ANGRY sometimes - mostly with myself for not sticking up to my ex-mil and calling her when she was such a bitch and making them remember

Oh I don't know.

And I so admire all you ladies for the way you cope - I'm 16 years down the line and this week for whatever reason I can't deal with it at all

I reckon all our kids are together. The older ones looking after the little 'uns. They will, hopefully, be giving that God bloke hell in heaven!! I have no doubt our Matty will have found a big tigger suit by now and our Gareth will be tutting at him and raising his eyebrows!!

I get angry too , I think we have every right to get angry sometimes especially at people who are muppets and don't respect our children the way they should .