Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

[lavandes]

For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

Morning girls xx

Welcome Cheese&G - glad you came and joined us but sorry you had to. Very sad to hear about your little girl - life is very, very unfair isin't it? xx

Morning welcome vondo and cheeseandg..

glad your check went well ilike.

morning ladies and welcome to vondo and cheese... Am so sorry to hear of your losses. My wee lad gregor died almost two years ago aged two of suspectd cot death but five months on following final pm results we found out an overwhelming virus was the cause of his death. i hope you find us a helpful bunch.. Xxx

Morning Ladies..

Feeling a lot better today, no nightmares but DS3 has a stinking cold so he was up and down all night - poor soul is not a well bunny.

We had a PM done with Finn, the results came back that they was no apparent reason - his heart just stopped beating is what they said. He was 36 weeks. I've found that really hard to deal with. I think if I'd had a reason for it happening it might have made more sense but for there to be no reason at all has been really hard for me to get my head around. I still don't believe that it wasn't something to do with me - there had to be a reason!

I went into labour with DS3 at 34 weeks and that was the scariest thing every, going to hospital and that initial scan, I don't think I breathed at all until i could see his heart beating. That was how we found out Finn had passed, I went into labour, went to hospital and when they did the initial scan there was no heartbeat - I'd felt him kick that morning too

Life really does throw us some real horrible things to deal with - I wouldn't wish losing a child on anyone! xx

Hi ladies xx

Welcome vondo and cheeese I am so sorry you had to be here but we all give eachother love and support. There is always someone to listen and we all understand xx

Hello Vondo and Cheese xx

Hi everyone, welcome Cheese, I have spoken to you previously. I'm glad that you have joined our thread (but obviously sad that you had to find yourself here) the ladies here are wonderful and it has been my lifeline since Malachy died.

Hope everyone is ok x

Hi Shabba, so very unfair :( Hey Shelley.

Peterpansmum so sorry for you :(

vondo - Had a PM with Scarlett too, nothing was wrong, it was the cord wrapped around her so much that killed her but they said there was brain damage a few hours before. We were told it was quick though, how can that be if there was brain damage hours before? Only had the results a couple of weeks ago and at the time I didn't think to ask that.

Hello lavandes and Axis xx

Hi Minione, hard isn't it :( so unfair, can't use any other words for it.

Feeling sad again tonight :(

I'm the fraud of the thread lol. My db was killed in a road crash in october 2009 aged 22. His death could have been prevented but the person who was riding the bike my brother was on. He was imprisioned for 20 weeks and served 10 of them. Not a day goes by that i dont think of him my ds quite often points to the sky and tells me his uncle is there and he misses db and wants to see him. It breaks my heart that he probably wont remember him only what we have told him..

I organised the flowers for my friends funeral. It will be a very fitting tribute to him.. in some ways it was easier than ordering dbs as it wasnt family but brought back many memories. I'm dreading the funeral as i will have to be strong for DB, DP and friends family but think the grief, memories (same chapel possibly same vicar) and hormones will make that near impossible.

Morning girls xx

You are not a fraud Shelley xx

Hello Vondo and Cheese. Glad you've found us, but so sorry too xx

Morning girls xx

Morning xx

just ment with it being a brother and not a child.
how is everyone? Got to go pay the florist later I'm really not looking forward to it. I'm terrified im going to break down. I know i will at my friends funeral and ill be disapointed in myself for not support DP who was 1 of his best mates

Morning girls xx

Morning all xx

morning all x

Morning ladies how are you all today? Xxxx

morning all. xx

I'm ok ppm - we have friends staying this weekend and I'm really looking forward to seeing them. having a 5 minute sit down now inbetween house jobs. Why is it we feel the need to make the house spotless when we have guests!?!

i dont know caz im the same lol.
I put of paying florist last night really cant today so wish me luck i get through it

afternoon all. haven't been able to chat as hard drive failed....aaargh thank god had backed up all Sians pictures etc so hopefully haven't lost anything. All my test results were returned all clear so a huge worry off my mind. Trouble is today it's exactly 6 months since Sian died, why do we feel as if we're the only ones who actually feel these milestones? It is such a lonely world out there when no one else realises the significance of the day or asks you why you are so glum...work it out you morons!!!! Sorry....self indulgent rant over but I swear if the total stranger who said cheer up it may never happen crosses my path again I'll swing for them! May never happen.....it already has you pillock(angry)

kazmus i had that and it cant be that bad said to me by someone in the pharmacy where i as getting sleeping pills a matter of days after my brother was killed. I'd already nearly fainited in there. Her face when i said yes it has n it cant get any worse my brother was killed was priceless

Evening all x

kazmus , I had that as well , I could just about stand it if it came from a stranger but from someone who knew what had happened well that was a different matter .

Have you done the flowers Shelley ?

It is so lovely to hear from you LF and your dh did a grand job too by the sounds of it .

It is such a scary mixed up time for you both but you are doing a grand job xxx