Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

Ohh... good news LF - what happens now?

Well, tis my birthday today. And DS3's. Cake later!

Awwwww special day in your house then Dee. Hope you are both having a lovely day xxxx

Happy birthday to you and your little boy Dee have fun xx

You'll have to take up knitting or something LF I can imagine that the time will seem very slow... I reckon you could pass a good few days giggling through the MN Classics.

Happy birthday Dee

What is it with hospitals at the moment?
I have just had to be firm and stroppy with mine who had completely mucked up my antenatal care booking and scans. The consultant I saw in November to go over all of Bobbie's test results said he wanted to see us for the next pregnancy and wrote to my GP to reiterate that (I have a copy of the letter). However the antenatal clinic got my referral to him and decided to book me in with someone different and much more junior. I phoned and asked them to change it and was told "Mr X is very busy, we have to prioritise his caseload"
I read them his letter to my GP so they begrudgingly changed the appointment.
Then had to sort out the fact that I have been sent a scan appointment for the wrong hospital. Cancelled that one. Tried to book with the right hospital who "can't book that far in advance". It's only 3.5 weeks!

All this is extra to the fact that my GP said they would get me an early scan for 6-7 weeks. Nothing happened so I phoned to chase it and was told "oh, we won;t give you an early scan" ...???

So I am now at 8+3 and feeling very frightened and uncared for so far and hoping it won't always be this much of a fight.

Will be booking a private scan shortly I think.

Happy birthday to you Dee and your wee lad too xx

Sounds like a reassuring plan LF - am thinking of you xx

DS1 is back from school and seems ok but now just chilling in front of a dvd. I've had a really wobbly day today. It's almost as if once some of the level of stress is removed the wheels start to come off the bus - don't know if that makes any sense at all?

Happy birthday Dee & DeeDS!

Shabba: your friend will be in my prayers. It must be so hard when he's so far away.

LF: your accommodation sounds lovely! I hope that the next 3 weeks pass gently & without any excitement (iykwim)

Spilt: it's so horrid when you feel like a number, not a real person, isn't it? I'm sure your consultant will sort everything out, but you have to get to him first [grrr emoticon]

PPM: I know I really struggle after the event, so I hope it's a normal response! I don't jump straight into crisis mode much any more but I prepare for it. Hope you've got some time to relax a little these next few days.

Hi LF glad to hear you are being well looked after the MW who was present at the birth of both of my first 2 girls was there when they started my induction with Seren. It was so nice to be able to chat to one of only a handful of people who had met Niamh.

Just completed my first 'week' back at work, absolutely shattered!

Morning all x

Dee I was convinced I had come here and wished you and T a happy birthday yesterday but clearly not . So Happy Birthday Boxing Day for today

LF How you doing this morning ? How is that yummy hospital food ?

I am so pleased that MrsD and confuddled went to that meeting yesterday . I am not entirely sure how much it will change this particular story but I am guessing it will make people think next time they think of doing a bereaved mum is nutter story which can only be a good thing .

Morning girls xx

Morning ladies xx

Great news about being admitted LF, I bet it's a great relief for you.

I know that feeling PPM, I think when you go into cope mode you live off adrenaline, and then when things calm down your body sort of crashes a bit and needs time to get over living on the edge.

Lovely to see you woollyjo

I have been laughing to myself at Shabs being like Madge from Benidorm

two more mums with breaking hearts who could use some kind words

What a shitty shitty world it is at times ...

Morning all x

Been up since 6 , J has a birthday today so a wee bit excited . They are both playing mario kart as we speak .

It could be a bit of a long day

Morning girls. xxx

Happy Birthday J, hope you have a brilliant day xx

Happy Birthday J! I like Mario Kart, I'm always the Baby Peach character

Good news on your bp going down LF.

Thank you

Have just left him at school in a grump . Bought him a rucksack as one of his presents for his after school sports stuff . But he is in a grump because it doesn't fit in lunch box book bag etc . So I was really childish and told him if it wasn't big enough he could give it to his brother and buy his own Now I am going to feel like shit all day because it is his birthday and he is grumpy .

He is only 7 and this shit matters to them doesn't it ?

I bet he has not give it another thought....you, however, will be feeling bad all day xxx Part of the 'being a parent' thing....loads of guilt. Tom went to school without any arguing suppose there is a first for everything!

Thanks Shabs , hopefully you are right , he has taken it with him to school and put his birthday sweets in to hand out later .

Honestly I am sure I have got bigger stuff to worry about than this

Well done Tom
How are him and his gf getting on ? Still loves young dream ?

He will be having great fun showing it off to his friends! I hate falling out with my lads BUT we have to remember that if we didn't discipline them properly they would grow up to be horrible adults. My Mum always says 'I wish I had let Matty play with those Russian dolls I had' and I always, always say to her 'They cost a fortune and he was only 7....he would have broken them. If we had spoiled him he would never have been the brilliant little lad he was.'

Tom has chosen his options this week....he has become interested again in school!! He has chosen subjects...by himself that he thinks will help him get into the job he wants to eventually do!! He wants to design and create video games. If he wants to do the IT course to GCSE level he has to give 100% for the rest of the year. He will then go into the 'G group' which is the 'top set' and will be allowed and encouraged to specialise in IT. They will organise work experience for him and everything. I cant believe the re-newed interest in school. Once he gets something in his head he is totally focused and stubborn

His holiday GF? The texting carries on between them. I really, really like her but she would eat him alive Just a year older than him but OMG she knows where she is going and what she wants to do. She has told him that she would go out with him when he gets taller than her PMSL!! He is 5ft and she is already about 5ft 5ins....he sits reading his texts with a big sloppy grin on his face

Ah bless him , he is going to start hanging from door frames in an attempt to stretch himself isn't he ?
Sounds like he has gotten really focused on his work , well done him .

I know you are right about the discipline thing and normally I don't really care but because it's his birthday I am letting it get to me . Bloody hopeless I am .
Oh well better get on with the stupid cleaning of my pit of a house so that when people come round to see him later they don't report us to ss .

We all do that love.....try to shove it to the back of your mind. Maybe mention it when you pick him up? Just something like 'Sorry I was a bit cross this morning BUT.........'

Im sat here ignoring the pit that I lovingly call home. If I dont look at it doesn't exist...Right??????

BUT...... you are a selfish little sod that should say "thank you it's just what I wanted" then seethe silently when your parents aren't around . That's what I used to have to do

Right I really am going this time , honest !