Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

LF so much love to you. Did the hospital say why they were sending you home? No wonder you're feeling fragile, this is when you need them the most. I'm bloody terrified of being 32 weeks pregnant again and we're not even pregnant again yet. (I'm terrifed of being pregnant full stop, but I'm 'forgetting' that ttc usually ends in one of those at the moment).

Describing you as such in your notes is hardly helpful either is it. I think you are justifiably and understandably anxious. x x x

I need to step away from the EE threads now.

I haven't read all of the thread, theres a lot to it, and i have only just discovered this section of the site, a great help, and if anyone needs help, im here.

There is one thing though, i had my son in 08 and now ttc with my DP, i am referring as TTC#1, is this destroying all my memories, i just can't bring myself to say TTC#2 :(

Caz - the headstone words will come, they don't have to be done straight away but you will find the words, i went for simplicity, it said it all - when you read you can adapt the words to your own memories as you see fit at that time.

Sorry for all your losses ladies, and men if any on here. Just remember we are mothers of angels.

Zac, 16/08/08-22/08/08

LunaticFringe sending you a big hug, you must be at your wits end x I can only imagine how nerve wrecking this must be for you.

CAz I've atarted to think about a , headstone for Malachy, its 30 weeks tomorrow since I gave birth and I was 30+4 somehow this seems all the more poignant and has stirred up a lot of emotions. I've no idea what I would have on the headstone, maybe a quote from one of the poems we had at his funeral. We shouldn't be doing this should we? We should be starting our babies on solids, being thrilled that they can sit up. But no, here we are thinking about headstones

IR So sorry to hear about Zac. Malchy will always be my DS1, I've also had 2 miscarriages and although they were deeply upsetting I don't see them as babies as such. I do seee them as broken dreams, futures etc. However you feel is deeply personal and doesn't lessen your love for your son x

LF :( are they going to call you in as soon as a bed becomes available? I imagine you don't have the energy, but kick up a stink.

Mini I know what you mean about reaching the 30 weeks since. It will be 32 weeks on 31st Jan that Belle was born, and like you it seems really significant because she'll have been gone for as long as I had her then.

welcome IR sorry to hear about your son. glad you have found this thread, its a wonderful place. As others have said there is no right or wrong way to things. Personally, Belle is my firstborn and we are ttc#2.

We have made a start on wording and design. We're thinking a heart set upon a base that looks like a cloud. And I think we'll have the sleeping angel engraved on it that was on her order of service and DH has had tattood for her. Hoping we'll have more or an idea about words after advice tomorrow about how many can fit on the stone we want etc. :(

That sounds lovely Caz, you know the words will come.

And thank you everyone for letting me in, it has already helped, reading the lovely advice to other mothers on other posts, even two years on, i still find strength in things like this.

LF, i really sincerely hope everything goes well, wishing you and your family the best at this time.

And also thank you for helping me even with the simple things about Zac, to me he will always just be Zac never the number child if that doesn't sound too, you know, hard to describe tbh...

I am very weak at the moment with the thought of him so thank you for the strength

xx

Huge ((cwtches)) for everyone - because i think we need them.

IR and OF - i'm so sorry that you both have to be here, please tell us more about your beautiful children if you feel you want to. We're here to listen.

Caz - will PM you in a little while.

LF - i think you've been treated appallingly. It's alright for them to say such and such... but they aren't the ones going through it, are they? Chin up babe, we're all here for you.

Mini - as i said to Caz, if you need any advice re the headstone, my brother is a monumental mason and always happy to give advice.

Shabbs - Love you, missus.

Girls can I point you in the direction of this mum who's baby boy was born sleeping this week.

Welcome innocentredhead. So sorry to hear about little Zac. For me I say to people that I have one child no longer with us, and that I am expecting my second. It's a personal choice, as everyone says no right or wrong.

Hiya girls xx

Just been catching up on our thread.

keepingsecret why was your post withdrawn? Weird!!

Sending my love to all of you - everybody sounds a bit down at the moment. xxx

Thanks Dee x

Spilt - I posted on their last night but thanks for pointing it out x

Hope you are all ok and sending my love to you all

I'd just like to say thanks to Dee, Travelling, Caz & anyone else who has posted on the EE threads for trying so hard to make our voices heard. If one person thinks twice before ignoring a parent in need (or worse), then it will be worth it.

Hello to InnocentRedhead - so sorry to hear about Zac.

Hello all

Heliantha it has got to be worth a try hasn't it ? Even though we are all feeling like we are banging our heads on a wall a lot of the time .

LF How you doing today ? I hope the hospital are kinder to you next week x

How is everyone doing ? I am failing miserably on the keeping away from the EE thing . I am however ignoring anything obviously just there to try and wind us up .

God give me fucking strength !!!!!

Fuckingbollcksytitwankingarseyfuckmuppets!!!!

Deep breaths and a large vodka Dee .
That is my plan anyway x

Ahhhhaaaaa TW funny you should mention a large vodka - Have just poured myself one, cheers xx

DS1 still not right - temp still spiking but not as bad as a couple of days ago. I finally managed to get some sleep last night, so here's hoping another reasonably settled night ahead.

Am thinking of you all xx

Cheers ppm

Bloody children and their scariness ay?

Fingers crossed for a good night tonight for you x

More deep breaths and more large vodkas here .

LFRINGE please post address of hospital or name of your consultant and I will phone and be a nuisance I feel you are being shortchanged., pm me if you want someone to speak for you, I will do it if necessaryxx

Hiya girls xx

hey shab

losing the will to live with EE threads now, really should press hide. I can feel a sarcastic side starting to some out in me that I don't like!!

Bottle of wine in the fridge ready for a few later on!

*come out