Hey, thanks all for kind words. I really do want to tell you all about my son, the gorgeous, unspoilt soul. It's gonna spill out too. Having a bad time of it recently, probably just passed Christmas, new year etc. The time when i should be starting to put him into nursery etc. Thinking what he should be doing here with me, watching my close friend bring up her daughter of same age, even my DSD sets me off sometimes, just thinking on the things i missed!
My son Zac, spitting image of me, never left hospital, the birth was easy, and i bonded straight away. Not even a week later i was grieving after such a joyous occasion, he touched my life and my soul in so many ways. Sorry if this is all making no sense i have never found a place to just blurt out everything i feel, whether or not it being in some sort of jumbled order. He was a very poorly baby, he passed over in my arms and became an angel foreve.r
I miss my son :'(
I know what you mean Iliketomoveit - people at first were always like oh il be here for you, and now over two years on when i want to talk, people seem to run or seem to say get over it. It could be me thinking they dont care but i really get the feel that sometimes they are bored of it. Its not often i open up to them anymore, but it would be nice not to feel outcast.
LF I sincerely do just hope you get the care you need, i know you don't need the stress that the hospital seems to be causing, not healthy, wishing you strength
With the EE threads i just can't bring myself to read them, against my best judgement i watched it and now wish i hadn't, i know i really should be involved on the threads but i have voiced my dusgust by complaint
Sorry if this thread seems a bit jumbled, got a lot on my plate at the moment, my head is a bit of a shed atm.
But as always wishing all you ladies health and strength especially to your ill DC's too xxxx