Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

Christmas pic of Wilf at his festive best on my profile!!

Caz here

A difficult day for me. If things had gone to plan then my girls would have been a few weeks old. Really hard without them. A friend has just had her twins and it feels unfair she gets Christmas with them but I don't have my girls with me.

Aww how lovely for Dee , so pleased for her!

Axis love to you and us all. Its nearly over. The world will go back to 'normal' on Monday.

You're right, it seems so very unfair. I've two neighbours who's babies were born in June - Belle and the other two all born within 10 days of eachother. and yes, it is unfair. They get the absolute perfect christmas, I've got making Belle's memory perfect at Christmas. Christmas will never be the same will it, even if we have another little one by next Christmas, Belle will still be missing. There will never be that 'perfect' christmas now.

Hi everyone. xx

Well I have survived. Woke up early before everyone else. Very tearful. But have got through thxxe day. I feel very selfish as I have got my eldest son and his lovely new partner here, she has been like a breath of fresh air. but much as I am so happy to have them here I have missed Richard so much today, very difficult.

I have lit candles for all our precious children. x

Morning girls xxx

Morning all

May I just say how immensely glad I am that yesterday is over. DH and I were doing ok by just muddling through and pretending it was just a normal weekend day with nice meal and a couple of gifts each... but the happy Christmas family phonecalls were hard. The one with my sister reduced me to a sweary tirade and mad tears (not her fault, but she seemed to want to get me to discuss all my feelings and explore whether I felt happy/sad/guilty blah blah blah and I was most pissed off by this so swore a lot, cried and then hung up )

We went for a walk in the afternoon and I got unreasonably angry about all the smiley people saying "Merry Christmas". I feel very horrible for this.

I was also feeling low and sad because one of my conception thread friends who was 1 day ahead of me started to MC on Christmas eve and had all the clots etc on Christmas morning. I am really sad for her . It's awful at anytime but to MC on Christmas day. Hideous

So I am 6 weeks today and nervous, sick, tired and mainly glad yesterday is over and the world can go back to normal.

Oh and the cat set fire to himself yesterday . He lent against a candle (the one I lit thinking of you all! Whose DC was being naughty then?! ), fur caught and smouldered for a second whilst we went and ran to help! Daft animal. He didn't even realise. Smoke alarm went mad and I can confirm that the smell of burning fur is vile!

Hope you are all ok xx

Well we're all out the other side.

We're about to go to Mum and Dads for our normal Sunday lunch. Mum didn't put a tree up this year, she kept putting it off and then all of a sudden it was Christmas Eve and she couldn't be bothered. They have struggled a lot this Christmas too. So it won't feel at all Boxing Day like there at all. Just a normal Sunday.

Oh your poor cat Split and poor girl on conception thread.

Hi folks,

Glad yesterday passed as easily as it could for everyone.

Yes, i did have some news - i honestly never thought i could be this happy again, but it seems i'm to be wed again!! Not decided on the wheres or whens yet, it's just enough that we've got this far, iyswim?

Much love to everyone xxx

Many, many congratulations Dee - so thrilled for you xxx

Hi everyone, we've all got through it x

Dee - COngratulations! I'm so happy for you

Oops it seems I'm as pished as a pished person!! Been out since mid afternoon with dh n ds1... just got in... HAve a feelin I may regret this in the morning!!! Xxx

Morning girls. xx

PPM - sounds like a good day also sounds a little like mine....except I have been in the house all day

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/1112007-Sad-News-re-Quadruplets

Think this Mummy could do with our help xxxx

Just posted Shab

Thank you love xxxxx

Adverse - glad you found us - but sorry we had to meet on this thread. xxxxxx

GIRLS - PLEASE IGNORE MY EARLIER LINK TO THE 'MUMMY WHO LOST QUADS' MN are going to pull the thread. OMG there's no fool like an old fool is there?

Omg again? Why do people keep doing this?

I wonder who this one is? MNHQ obviously have an idea to pull it so quickly!

I know it is attention seeking but I don't understand. If they really lived what we live for one minute no-one would lie about our pain.

Sadly, sadly Caz there are totally nutters in this world. Fancy anyone with a sane mind, wanting to be in our situation. Sorry I dragged you in sweetheart. One day I WILL think before I post. Love to you xxxx

Don't worry Shab - I would rather send a message of love and support than miss a real Mummy. I just can't believe a sick individual who would do this at Christmas (or any time, but now when complete families are especially in our faces...) They have no idea how Christmas has hurt us real Mums.

They do it because they crave attention. I feel awful for dragging you girls in. xxx

Omg just spotted that post before it was pulled... Some folks are just hideous creatures... Why why why?
I also believe in karma shabs...

Surpringly I'm not as hungover as I thought I'd be today... Think I was almost needing a blow out if that makes sense?! Some serious dieting is on the cards for me next year... Last year I was really screwed up about new year but this time i think I have a little more perspective and I do feel able to and actually want to look forward... Progress? Nah I just think I've decided that MY life is very precious and I do actually want to live!!

hi ladies xx

Can I ignore all the crap from the pulled post and ask for a round of applause for all of us who have survived the last days. Hope this is appropriate here goes

HIP HIP HURRY HIP HURRAY HIP HURRAY XXXX