Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

Princess thank you for your lovely gesture. Candles of rememberance are always welcomed here.

I'm so sorry to hear of your siblings and your friends son. x x x

Morning girls xx

Happy Birthday to little Jack for yesterday x

Hi florence, it's hard and especially so at this time of year x

Princess - that is really kind of you.

I now officially give up on Christmas....My 'umph' (if it ever was there) has vanished

If we havent got 'it' - Im not going shopping again for 'it!'

xx

I've been hugely touched today - a wonderful gesture that completely makes up for all the people who are insensitive.

This morning we had a big surprise in the post, a voucher from the hotel where we got married, for Dinner, Bed, Breakfast and 2 spa treatments. This hotel is our happy place.

I'm part of another online community (my friend is one of the admins - its tiny compared to MN) and the ladies there had clubbed together to pay for this surprise for us. Part 2 is on its way too and is something in memory of Belle. Hopefully that should be here tomorrow.

How thoughtful and generous is that? I'm really overwhelmed. A lovely Christmas present.

Oh Caz how wonderful. Thats what Christmas is all about isin't it? I have had some lovely MN Secret Santas gifts and have sobbed with each one that arrived.

You have put a big grin on my face now xxx

lottie sorry I didn't post yesterday but I was thinking of you. xxx
caz that is so nice Enjoy xx

It is wonderful to have our eldest son home, his new partner is a lovely girl it is weird but she and I have so much in common it is lovely. We went to Truro last night and went into the Cathredal, the choir were there singing carols. It was so touching I had tears. I couldn't light candles because they were filming but I said a prayer for all our children.

I am not going to be able to post much but I wish you all a peaceful week and thank all of you from the bottom of my heart for your love and support over the past 8 months. I do not know how I would have coped without you. We may only be virtual friends but I consider you all to be true friends xx

Awwww Lavendes you sound so much brighter. Glad you like your sons girlfriend. xxxxx I wish you and your family a peaceful Christmas, I hope you can laugh and cry and dance and sing together. Was going to put Merry Christmas and stopped myself - then had second thoughts.....Merry Christmas Lavendes and your family - Richard would be so glad you are all together and, never forget he is only a whisper away and will be at your side now and forever xxxxxx

Thanls Shabs. My son is Marc he has not opened up yet. I am not sure that he will. But we are all enjoying being together which I think is the important thing. His girlfriend is so nice and she has had such a calming influence on him. It is so weird but she and I have so much in common that we have become friends already. I really feel Richard is 'looking down on us' and wishing us all well. He was such a gentle soul so laid back, he had such a difficut time in his private life but he never bore a grudge against anyone . xx

I think that Marc may open up more after Christmas Day. It must feel very weird for him. To have been on the other side of the world when Richard died. He is probably so afraid to make you cry. Stiff upper lip and all that. Bet you any money there will be a moment where he opens up to you. I truly believe that Richard is watching over all of you and is so proud of you all. xxxxxx

I think you are right shabs Marc does not cope well with travelling, he never has, his girlfriend is so exicited to be in England but for Marc it is just 'coming home' He is still jetlagged. I am just 'leaving him be' I will not put him under any pressure just see what happens.

Our grandchildren are coming for New Year and it will be great for them to spend time with Unce Marc he is planning to just spend time playing with them, time in the park and boys things etc should be fun for them all. xx

Morning girls xx

Morning all xx

Just set off to our corner shop for a newspaper. Thought about my neighbour (she is about 83) and went to see if she wanted a paper bringing. She defrosted her car and drove me to the shop, then brought me home LOL - sliding and skiding all over the icy, snowy road.....so much for trying to help an elderly neighbour. As my Nan would have said 'she's a game old bird!!'

Morning,

Glad you are having a good time with your son home lavandes and that you and his girlfriend are getting on well. I hope you have a peaceful christmas altogether.

I'm can feel the tears building up today. Today we've got to play Father Christmas and deliver the few presents we have bought to people, all we've done is tiny token things, because that is all I could manage. Although I must say I'm proud of myself for making the effort and buying my nieces 'proper' presents - that was so bloody painful in the toy shops.

It starts today. 3 days of in your face Christmas.

Caz you HAVE done brilliantly buying gifts. If the tears come, dont try to hide them. The people who matter to you will understand. Dont try to stop them - crying does help IMO.....I tried to be strong for many years - IT DOES NOT WORK. Your precious girl will be so proud of you xxxx

Hi Everyone

Just a quick as stepson is coming over today, my mum is coming for xmas and boxing day and then we're off to Ireland the following day for DH's sister's 40th so I'm not goingto be around much. I'm cooking some nice food but that's about as Christmassy as I feel.

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you all for being here for me over the past 5 months or so, I can't believe its over 6 months since my little Malachy died. Ladies, you are all amazing and you have helped me through all my dark days x

Merry Christmas (well, as good as it can be)and speak soon x

Mini - sounds like there will be enough going on to keep you busy....Merry Christmas to you and yours - I hope you find some peace in the middle of your hectic timetable xxxx

Thanks Shab, I've just been up to see Malachy and told him how much I love him x

Am halfway through making a beef wellington but am having a quick break to have a cuppa.

Really sorry to intrude ladies but have just read a post on the miscarriage thread from a lady who has lost her baby at 23 weeks. None of my MC were that late and I am not sure ho to advise her so I wondered if it was ok to point her in the direction of this thread . Sorry if that is rude and I'm sure you guys have enough on your plates at the moment but I couldn't leave her post unanswered. Thinking of you all at what must be an even harder time than usual.

You are not intruding and please link her to us. xxx

Hello ladies

Please forgive the intrusion, but I just wanted to let you all know that I am thinking of you at this time. This time of year must stir such an overwhelming range of emotions in you and I just wanted to let you know that people outside your thread are sending you best wishes for a peaceful time.

Take care.

Thanks Sybil. Christmas is very 'in your face' isin't it? Everybody thinks they have to be happy. xx

Thanks hobnobs I've just posted on her thread.

And sybil thank you

sorry for being awol.....

I just wanted to say that Fraser and all our darling children will be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow

I hope we can all find some peace and something to smile about this christmas day.

To all the mums who were bereaved this year.... you will find the strength to get through the day. There will be tears, how could there not be ... but you will get through it

Love to you all this christmas Eve..