Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

Good news Caz x

Split - My advice is do the things you want to do or things you would choose to do and if things don't fit into those categories then you probably don't need to go... As time has gone on i've found it easier to say 'no' to things that are not things i'd choose to do. If this person is just a work colleague then it prob doesn't really matter if you are there or not and if she is someone you are likely to keep as a friend then in the fullness of time she will totally understand why you would find it too tough to be there - either way, follow your instinct and if it's not a definite 'yes' then its probably a 'no' xxx

Great advice PPM

Good morning all xx

Morning ladies xx

My son has just landed safely at Heathrow, just a train journey then he will be home. This last 2 days have been so stressful because of the weather disruptions, airport closed etc. but he had no disruption at all and was 10 mins early! I cannot tell you how relieved I feel, I have been so stressed, but will calmn down now. xx

Fantastic news Lavandes , he has had someone looking after him I reckon x

I really think that too tw maybe an angel xx

Exactly !

How long before you have got him home ? I bet you can't wait to give him a big hug ?

Morning girls xx

Oh Lavendes I am so excited for you. Give that lad of yours an extra hug from his Auntie Shabba please Can only imagine the laughter and tears that will be coming from your house. So pleased for you xxxxxxxx

Thanks shabs I must stop crying before he gets here xx

So pleased to hear your son is home lavandes . Xxx

WHY? Lavendes Im having a bit of a cry for you and I am hundreds of miles away from you and we have never met in real life

Have a wonderful time together my friend and cherish every moment xxx

That is fab news lavandes .... One extra squeezy hug for you from me xxx

Thanks all for your words yesterday.

lavandes that's great news, so glad he's landed safely, you'll see him soon!

Caz thinking of you today. It's 6 months isn't it? Take care of yourself xx

Thanks split - yes 6 months today. I cannot believe I've lived without her for half a year now.

Some days it feels like no time at all and only yesterday, some days it feels like such a long long time has passed. and sometimes it just feels like its not even real. That it is all a nightmare that I need to wake up from and not really happening to me. Like there was never a baby in our lives at all. Does that make any sense?

Not sure how I'm feeling today if I'm honest. I'm going to put up and decorate the pink tree we've bought for her later. Buying 3ft pink tree and making it Belle's was the only way a tree was going up this year. We're doing it for her.

Caz that makes perfect sense. I can certainly relate to the different feelings of it only happening yesterday, it happening a lifetime ago and the whole thing feeling unreal. But she's very real as you know and very precious and very loved. I hope that as you have a Christmas in her memory the loving things you do for her give you a bit of an outlet for the pain, if that makes sense?

One of the things I find so hard is the feeling that I did so little for my daughter because she was with us for such a short time. I never got to feed her, bath her, tickle her, change her nappy or anything... so the little things I can do now like take her flowers and make her memory box and put her photo up are the few ways I have left to express the love I feel for her. It almost comes from a horrible sense of having been thwarted in every other way and there not being many mummy things left to me

caz I totally understand how you feel, it was 8 months last Saturday that we lost Richard. And like you it sometimes feels like yesterday. Your pink tree for Belle sounds lovely xxx

hugs to everyone, lavendas lovely to see your son, big hugs to him lovely to see him again i bet.

Morning girls xx

Lighting my candle for your precious DS today, Lottie. I hope you find some peace somewhere in this day. Happy Birthday Jack. I bet there will be one amazing party going on in heaven Lottie. Thinking of you today my friend xxxxx

happy birthday jackxxx thinking of you lottiex

Happy Birthday to Jack x x x

Thanks ladies, have managed to get on my neighbours laptop! We went to the grave this afternoon, My Mum was there at the same time which was nice! Also there was a robin following us around the churchyard!

Happy Birthday Jack! x

Facing our 4th Christmas without our little Jacob. Yesterday, a lifetime ago or perhaps it wasn't us :(

Ladies, please forgive me for intruding on your very special thread.

I went to Paris last weekend, and lit a candle in Notre Dame Cathedral for my sister I never knew, for my brothers who died young, for my friend's son who died recently, and for all your lost ones.

You don't know me, of course, but I am thinking of you all. And I will light a Christmas candle on Saturday for all of you.