Big hugs to you Eulalia.
I think the constant reminders will sadly continue, but your brain will get better at blocking and filtering so you don't have the crushing rememberence every time there is a trigger. Maybe that is where Lins is - in the protective zone.
Thinking about Lins, and the feelings you have. All I can imagine is that had you lost, say, 2 very close family members who were known to others, no one would expect you to have an emotionally easy pregnancy.
I can hardly type it, but say you or any of us lost 2 children. Everyone would expect emotional fall out in pregnancy.
Well, thats your reality isn't it? How harsh to write it down. But it's true isn't it, you felt it and are grieving for 2 babies. Only in a different set of circumstances. In some ways, but the base reactions are the same. It's bound to create all sorts of reactions in you Lins. And in all of us who have these things happen. Go very easy on yourself and don't measure yourself against the fluffy pregnant blooming one, off to yoga and mooching around mothercare. It's a myth, most pregnant people seem to be a broiling mass of stress, pressure, guilt, joy, hormones, happiness, excitement, nervous tension........from what I've seen any how.
Hand holds all round.
Needed here too, this school thing is stressfull!
xx to Bee.
Hopoe BB is ok. And all of course. x