to expect a tiny response from MN on the biggest day in my life?

[MadameDefarge]

posted in chat. Maybe sounded too nonchalant? didn't want to sound pathetic.

have lost everything, apart from a tiny bit of equity in the home I was forced to sell. Am trying to set up a cafe, all sound re business plans etc. Am a single parent, have been hounded out of my home by fucking crack dealing cunts that held a gun to my 8 year olds head, am trying to to do my best. We lost our home, my job, everything that matters.

Finally after a year of searching and disappointment have found somewhere that might possibly be the answer to my dream.

I want my boy to see his mum being a success, doing well, overcoming obstacles. Protecting him and moving on from shit. I have spent two years wanting to end it all,and crawling back from the abyss.

But I am so scared. And need a bit of support.

So probably not AIBU either. but felt very sad that not answered in chat.

Yes Shiney, am on FB. You?

Ooh yes please! I promise I won't cybestalk you.

Thanks Greensleeves. MN is a big place, and I must remember it's not all about me!

How do I find you Shiney? Did a search under 'Shiney" and "jumper", but no luck.

I'm only practicing on you Shiney, got to get in good stalking shape before I target a z-list sleb.

Well done you. You must be very proud

Look, I know you used to have another name, I remember when you changed it but I cannot remember who you were

Any clue (unless you need to keep it quiet, of course)?

How exciting, what an amazing summer you're going to have.

oh the bliss, two birds with one stone, as 'twere.

I am a rubbish stalker. Where do I find your email address?

I used to be worldsworstmummy but the ironic bit didn't really translate on MN.

""Arrest you myself""

will you give me a chinese burn too? Please?

oh doh!

ah, like saintmaybe! It was meant to be ironic too, but I hadn't realised that my hollow laugh doesn't really come across in print.

I LOVE your new name. your ds is very lucky.

Right, now I have cunningly inveighled myself into Shineys good books, I am going to use the adrenalin rush to rip my velcroed bum of the sofa and go and pursue my dreams... fingers crossed!

Thanks Shiney and Saint and everyone..off I toddle.

Good Evening Ladies.

Quick news update.

Mad Hackney Butcher Reveals Existence of Real Landlord in Cafe Shocker

to whom he will introduce me and stuff for a consideration. Basically wants me to buy him out of his lease, in return for him getting me a better deal on the rent.

I am clearly going to get screwed in some way, but bless him, the amounts are so piddly I win anyway!

So not bad news, but not fabulous news just yet.

Thanks TPT .

Good luck - hope it goes your way!

Madame

Hope it all goes to plan and yes please be careful of the screwing (in biz you understand)