I’m sitting up in bed with a cat stretched out along my legs and a dog snoring on her bed in the corner, watching Blackshore on the iPlayer. Lisa Dwan is so good. Been a funny few days as our other cat died this week and it has really knocked me for six, quite surprised as he much preferred DH and hadn’t bothered with me at all for a while. He was very old though and there are memories of him all over the house. And I had to tell the DC, which was awful because they loved him so much and he saw them through their entire childhoods. In desperation this evening I talked (? Corresponded?) with ChatGPT and that was actually quite helpful, I feel a bit calmer now. I hope I can take a few moments to be sad tomorrow instead of the grief just absolutely flooring me all the time. At some point I am going to have to be able to leave the house and manage a day at work without crying 😬
Anyway - we had chilli for dinner with some guacamole and a jacket potato. Just the two of us as DS is working tonight and DD away at uni. I’ll finish this episode and then probably go to sleep, I’m exhausted.