Thank you so much Parma. I so rarely stick my head above the parapet but am just sick to death of it all.
Growing up, I was almost ashamed to be Jewish. I went to a predominantly CofE school, and in my year, there were only two other Jews. I had no Jewish friends, quite a lot of antisemitic teachers who took great glee in making comments about my absence from school at the beginning of each school year due to Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur. I have been othered, and to a degree, Schrodinger's Jews. To white for some, not white enough for others. The irony is of course that despite coming from an unblemished and totally pure Jewish line, indeed, no-one has ever married out and I also have two BCRA mutations, am only culturally and ethnically Jewish. Although we observed Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, we didn't keep kosher, we rarely went to shul, and I have never been to Israel. Heck, for various reasons, my father did not have a bat mitzvah.
Over the years, I distanced myself from Judaism. And besides, it's something that flows in one's blood, not dependent on religious beliefs. However, over the pandemic, I had some older Jewish friends and they invited me for various things, and it was brilliant. I started to properly embrace my heritage and did a lot of reading. Antisemitism has. always been on my radar but because I don't look stereotypically Jewish (in itself an antisemitic thing to think/say), a lot of people would talk shit about Jews, not realising I was one. And then October 7 happened. I woke up. I became proud of my heritage, after all, my family line exists because it has managed to survive when so many others Jewish people have been killed. Survival is literally in my blood. I properly embraced my Jewish heritage, and it made me realise I needed to stand up and be more vocal. While I do not condone Netanyhau's actions, I understand why he is doing what he is doing. Fair play to him for taking Hamas on.