Standing in solidarity with the OP - and sending a virtual hug.
One or more in a series of unfortunate events can destroy lives at a stroke, and after a while it becomes harder and harder to rebuild. Sometimes, no matter how hard one tries to be positive, "practise gratitude" and all the other frankly tone deaf platitudes the "well meaning" spout, systemic and economic factors lead to door after door being slammed shut.
Employers dictate who they want to employ, and more and more people don't fit the criteria. Long gone are the days where one could rock up and charm your way into even a minimum wage job where you're willing to learn and progress, because before you get near a human an algorithm weeds you out. And that's if you are capable of work, never mind if you need support or reasonable adjustments.
I well remember a thread where Stephen Hawking was held up as the poster child to encourage even the most challenged to get a job, any job.
It's not about people devaluing themselves in their personal circumstances, it is very much more about value being solely calculated in monetary terms - that's the world we live in - maximum profit for minimum outlay in terms of creating inclusive environments.
The OP, and others in their position have a value, regardless of their perceived economic worth. They are not "other", they are you and me with a very difficult hand to play.
The world is regressing at an alarming rate in terms of humanity and compassion. So much frothing about the cost of looking after the vulnerable but not so much about subsidised bars and restaurants in the House of Commons, or eye watering bonuses paid to CEOs who are paid ostensibly to just make money for the already wealthy, or the huge corporations who own properties that they'll leave empty due to tax breaks, but it doesn't matter because it's just assets at the end of the day.
But no, it's so much easier to kick people when they're down.
Sending you all the best OP. You deserve so much more x